Is it HOCD anymore?

So I have been struggling with this form of OCD for almost 6 months and at the beggining, things did not seem as real as they do now. I don't even know who I am anymore and I'm not sure whether I can even call this HOCD because it feels so effing real. I was diagnosed and all but that doesn't seem to make a difference. I feel like I have done a complete 180. Any advice would be amazing!
Thanks,
Ahay

Ahay wrote: I'm not sure whether I can even call this HOCD because it feels so effing real.

What do you mean by "feels so effing real"? You mean, you really like the same sex? Do you really want to have a romantic relationship with someone of the same sex? That kind of real?

Or is it real fear that you like someone of the same sex?

When we were kids, we would fear a dark room, like the basement. Maybe a monster in the dark. The more we thought about it, the more we looked at the dark space below, the more we were frightened.

And it felt so effing real.

But there wasn't monster. There was no truth in our fears.

When you say...

I was diagnosed and all but that doesn't seem to make a difference.

What hasn't changed? The fear? Getting a diagnosis of some sort of anxiety disorder, is the first step. Treatment needs to be applied.

Otter.

Ok so about the relationship thing I'm pretty sure I don't want that but the voices in my head are telling me that I do and I really don't know any more. It feels like I have literally turned gay

I'm sorry about the voices, Ahay. The voices can tell you all day long that you are something you are not, but they can't change you. But they can make you miserable and paralyze you.

sorry.

Otter

What makes it seems so real for you? Just that your thoughts tell you things?