Doubting my very essence

Sorry that I keep posting. My OCD is really bad right now and I'm so wracked with guilt over everything and doubting the very essence of who I am. I feel so guilty for the help I'm getting from the community mental health team. I feel that I should be able to control this but can't. It seemed to get better and I was exposing myself to stuff that made me anxious and caused the obsessions, but I'm totally in bits right now. I try so hard to be a good person.

I'm sorry you're feeling this way but you're definitely a good person and only receive the help you deserve. Of course you can't control OCD but your intrusive thoughts don't define who you are. The fact that you're worrying about them so much shows how repulsed you are by them and that they obviously go against your real character.

Maybe that was helpful? I'm not good at this but I just wanted to make sure you know someone read ypur post.

Thanks tanja, you're a kind person! I keep telling myself that we are not our thoughts, but I'm just in the grip of it right now. Thanks for taking the time to reply. x