Surely I'm too old for this obsession?!!

Dear CloudShark:

I like what your psychiatrist told you. I wish my psychiatrist of 17 consecutive years told me anything of meaning. All he said was: How are you doing on 50 mg of X? Let's try 75 mg. In a month: How are you doing on 75 mg? Lets add Y. See you in a month.

I like what he said, that it is not about the thought, it is about the train- that train that I see as the excess, unsettled fear.

Hope your psychiatrist says more stuff, from the little you reported that he said, he sounds understanding enough of what OCD is about.

atina

Thanks atina. I'm guessing the rumination is the compulsion and that he's trying to get me to wean myself off of it.

I'll post if he says more, but I'm, not due to see him for a couple of months.

I have the compulsive ("crotch/breast") staring thing.. it's completely nonsexual , unless I deliberately want to look at a woman's breasts (my gf) , but all the other times, it starts off with the fear of accidently glancing or looking by mistake, and thus your mind puts a hyper focus on the fact that you might.. so in reaction to such a worry... you end up looking! haha

Seriously? Breasts aren't automatic?

Oh, no. No no no. Nope.

Not that i intentionally look. But I've often realised, with a shock, that I've been talking to breasts. It's just instinct. They're breasts. I may be Bi, but all the cure I need for any budding HOCD style thought, is to think of boobies.

Actually, for me (I'm 51), Valerie Bertinelli, naked, holding a plate of bacon, is mental image enough to remind me I'm male and like girls. Instant T/HOCD buster. I may be ###$ up, but I'm not that ###$ up.

djslanty wrote:I have the compulsive ("crotch/breast") staring thing.. it's completely nonsexual , unless I deliberately want to look at a woman's breasts (my gf) , but all the other times, it starts off with the fear of accidently glancing or looking by mistake, and thus your mind puts a hyper focus on the fact that you might.. so in reaction to such a worry... you end up looking! haha

Ah yes. I know this only too well. My partner thinks it's absurd and finds it amusing. Sometimes I find myself having to laugh at the situation, which is a good sign!

atina wrote:Dear CloudShark:

I like what your psychiatrist told you. I wish my psychiatrist of 17 consecutive years told me anything of meaning. All he said was: How are you doing on 50 mg of X? Let's try 75 mg. In a month: How are you doing on 75 mg? Lets add Y. See you in a month.

I like what he said, that it is not about the thought, it is about the train- that train that I see as the excess, unsettled fear.

Hope your psychiatrist says more stuff, from the little you reported that he said, he sounds understanding enough of what OCD is about.

atina

To be honest, he's quite a scary and formidable bloke, but he's a consultant psychiatrist and is good at his job. One of the things I like about him is that he doesn't believe in getting too hung up on labels. He said he treats individuals, but needs to label them for admin purposes.

Dear CloudShark:

It is so refreshing, a psychiatrist who says more than what I told you mine said, that I am looking forward to the next thing he tells you in two months: a talking psychiatrist, who would have thought... maybe he is not a U.S psychiatrist?

I agree with him not being hung on labels because the diagnostic labels are about collections of symptoms determined by psychiatrists and are not about root causes. In the U.S these labels are used for billing purposes... and have some use in starting therapy, but root causes is what matter when you get deeper into healing, says I.

atina

* snaga2.0, I do enjoy your humor, you are a funny guy!

Yeah, snaga2.0 is a funny guy.

He's a UK psychiatrist. I only get a 30 - 40 min appointment with him, but he has actually talks about stuff. I think the policy is not to over-medicate people here these days.

I'll keep you posted and let you know whether I can manage to give my ruminations a time slot!

Thank you, CloudShark: it will be good to read posts from you again and again.
atina