Anyone, please read. Advice? HOCD

Okay so i was reading some posts on HOCD types and i found a post about low self esteem's connection to HOCD. It described how i felt to the t. the problem is i kept reading and i saw something where a guy was talking about the urge to come out. I thought "maybe thats what i need to do" so my heart starts racing super fast and finally just said "im gay" out loud. It seemed like my anxiety went away. I am so confused

(perhaps upcoming TMI)
I tested myself to a picture of a dude. Nothing, no groinal reaction, even tried to manually stimulate, nothing. Then to a picture of a girl, slight reaction, stimulate, more reaction. What is happening? This was literally minutes ago and im so freaked out. Why did my anxiety reduce after i said that out loud. Im so freaked out. What does this mean? My anxiety has been really bad the passed two days, this is the longest its been reduced. I have no idea what to do. I feel different.

Heyyy! So yeah I'm a going through the exact same thing (seriously) except I'm a girl. But I know how weird it is because I said I'm gay in my head and it seemed like the anxiety reduced which then freaked me out like crazy, so I wouldn't say this is out of the normal. This is so crazy. I hope it stops soon for both of us!

HOCD-scared1996 to me it seems obvious that you have HOCD and it should to you just by reading what you write especially with your TMI section. But I'm still uncertain of myself because of groinal responses.

Hello! I am a female and have been battling HOCD for about 7 months now and I can completely relate to you on that! It's scary because I'll just say, "I'm GAY!" and it almost feels like if its true or just eases my anxiety and then I start to panic because of it. I think quite a few of us have been there a few times, so I am guessing it is not out of the normal. Stay strong!