I'm scared to talk to a psychologist for what I think is OCD

I believe that I suffer from OCD. Since I was about 12 years old (I'm 18 now)I have had a crippling fear that I am attracted to children. I started developing this fear after one day I walked in on my younger sister in the shower and I kinda glanced at her before running out. Rationally I understand that obviously if you walk in on somebody in the shower you will probably notice their parts but it's likes co start argument with myself. My mind is playing devils advocate and is like "what if it really was not an accident and you wanted to see her naked?" "If it was an accident then why did you look?" There are other similar incidents but I just feel like it's always a battle in my mind of me trying to convince myself that I am not a paedophile. I get really nervous if kids are around me sometimes and I try not to look at them because I'm afraid that I will be attracted to them. I really don't think I am attracted to kids at all, I've never had the urge to do anything sexual or watch child pornography but I still think about it everyday and recently it's gotten bad and I cry about it almost everyday. I'm so scared to talk about this to a psychologist about it because I'm afraid I will get reported or something and be put on some kind of watch list and it will ruin my life. I've only told my mom about this and I'm too ashamed to tell anyone else but I know that it will just keep getting worse until I see a psychologist. Any help?

Hello,

I completely understand that you are afraid but you don't need to be. Psychologists are familiar with this disorder and know how to treat it. You told your mom which is really brave and you will also be able to talk to a psychologist about it. You suffer from it since 6 years and it's getting worse, so I think there is the need to talk a specialist.

Best wishes!