I want to begin by thanking everyone who is taking the time to read my posts and help answer my questions. As many of you know these mental disorders, especially OCD is a son of a gun, and will gladly keep you up at night, (pretty much where I'm at right now, sitting in my bathroom at one in the morning trying to figure out what is wrong with me lol)
The other day I asked a question to this forum trying to figure out if I had schizophrenia or if I had OCD. Well with some help all the symptoms point to OCD, and that I have a fear of developing schizophrenia, which from what I've read may be worse if not just as bad as having the disease. ( lucky me) with that being said my question is just as the title states, what about hallucinating ? I had something weird happen to me earlier today around 12am. .
I Was sitting in my car waiting for a friend, around midnight. Now his neighborhood is a pretty bad one, if you're familiar jersey then with Newark should ring a bell. (And my friend just happens to live in a very well known area known for its sales... If you understand what I mean. (NO I was not picking up anything else but my friend. Him and I met during my time spent going to school, and unfortunately that's where he lives.) Anyway it's no paradise, it's a very well known area and I was in paranoid mode because I had a weird man already walk past me acting suspicious.
Now here is where it gets really weird... I was on my phone and I thought I saw something in the street out the corner of my eye. When I looked directly at It, at first I thought it was a squirrel or an animal of some kind. I looked again and it began to appear to what looked like a dog walking in the middle of the street... For some reason though it didn't really look like a dog, in a sense that I really couldn't make out what the hell it was, it had the features of a dog, but it's face was almost distorted or something it was bloody weird to say the least... And when I finally adjusted my vision I realized nothing was there and it was almost like I had hallucinated the dog being there. The scariest part was it actually for a second looked like it was a dog. I mean it looked like it was walking and it was brown in color but there was nothing there. This freaked me out and I need to talk to someone about this. I mean just yesterday I was ok with no hallucinating and now This happens. And of course I couldn't tell my friend, he'd prob tell me he was ok with walking to campus. Ha
Idk what to do I feel like the more I stress about this the worse I become. I really am starting to believe that maybe I have the damn disease and I'm just under a disillusion state of mind. Please someone help me. I honestly don't ever have any hallucinations ever, and this was maybe for 3 seconds long at that. I know the difference between what's real and what's not and its getting to the point where I don't know what to do.
Thanks a bunch everyone
Snowman