Can't get over a past experience...

About 6 years ago I was at a party and had too much to drink and wound up hanging out with a guy friend. I was pretty intoxicated and because I was practically passing out and couldn't keep my head up and I wound up resting my head in his lap. I assure you NOTHING else happened! I realized that this was not a good decision and felt bad, but did not tell my fiancée, which is not usually what I do - we tell each other just about everything. I made peace with it and in the last 6 years, it hasn't bothered me because nothing happened, and I have NEVER had anything like that happen again. I chalked it up to a being to drunk. A few days ago, I was thinking about my fiancée and how great he is and that I finally felt really happy and this memory flashed, and since then I have not been able to get over it. It keeps playing over and over. To give you a little history of myself, I was diagnosed with OCD about 3 years ago, but suffered for about 2 years before being diagnosed - I did have what I now know was a bout of OCD when I was 13, but then it became inactive for just about 10 years. My obsessions often switch between harm and relationship obsessions. I know the thing that happened was not good, but I had moved on and now I feel so happy and blessed with my guy, that I don't know what to do. I just keep going over and over the scenario that happened 6 years ago. Any advice or similar situations?

I get harm OCD a lot. Not often relationship.

Maybe the thing that happened wasn't 'good', but it wasn't 'bad', either. Not in my book. I mean, I've drunk dirty danced before, with the sig other present. I'm still in one piece. You didn't do anything, it was a friend. What are friends for if not a lap for a drunk head?

It's hard to break that OCD cycle but what I'd do is ofc never, ever give in to the temptation to bring the subject up with my hunny, 'cause if you do it'll be like well if that's all that happened why are you so upset about it, right? At least, that's what I'd be thinking about. And then you know, I'd like try to put the thought behind me. Nothing happened, I didn't do nothing bad, I'm not going to feel guilty over it. And smack that thought with those countering thoughts every time it raises its head up like whack-a-mole at Chuck-E-Cheese's. I mean, what else can you do, other than blow it all out of proportion by making something that was nothing out to be something that was something? When it was nothing.

Which you know, and knew for six years. But OCD loves to mess with you like that. Digging up bones to poke at you. It's like my Harm OCD. I'm like fine, whatever, I haven't killed no one yet, I'm not going to, and I'll worry about it when it happens, until then I don't care. That's the ONLY way I've been able to totally do no compulsive behavior at all over such thoughts. And that's how I'd approach this, were it me. I'd be like, oh hell no I'm not confessing to something innocent and making a big deal out of it (because ofc my OCD would be like this is on my conscience, right?) and we've made it six years and the world has not ended on account of this and it can keep right on the way things have been. And just let that thought come and go and mentally turn my back on it, as it were.

I tell you, though, targeted intentionally ignoring a thought, and not thinking about it while it's there, is really.... very Orwellian in a doublethink sort of way. It's doable, but it took me a long time to get a handle on my harm OCD that way.

Thank you Snaga2.0. The thought came, and it spiraled as OCD thoughts tend to do. Pretty soon I'm trying to argue, justify and ignore the thought, which I know does not work. OCD is a devious cow and its pretty easy to get caught up in. Again, thanks for your reply.