I've told my story before and I'll summarize it quickly: I have OCD about the possibility of brain damage as result of using meth (I didn't know it was meth) once, but got sick so I'm scared it was an overdose. It's extremely suffering, I think about this for hours a day. Medication helped a bit, but not much. I don't nkow what to do anymore and I feel suicidal. Many many people have tried to reassure me but nothing helps.
I think my last resource is a PET scan to see if brain is functioning as it should. I'm particularly concerned about the neurotoxic effects on dopamine and serotonin transporters/nerve cells.
I hope my psychiatrist will prescribe one. I'll call her tomorrow. I just want to function again and live a normal life. I get very depressed lately, semi suicidal.
Image you were coughing all the time or had swollen lymph glands but couldnt get an HIV test and ppl around you would just say 'it's just a cold'. It's exactly the same. I want proof that I dont have any damage, otherwise i'll be unhappy all my life.
Any thoughts?

thanks for reading this