Real Event OCD

Hello,
my name is Tyler and I am a 23 year old male. I have had OCD ever since around 10 until now. I have had several themes such as harm, hypochondria etc. Now i am going through a theme related to sexuality. I have a fetish for underwear for some reason and in the past from about 15 years old to 19 I have done some things that I feel very guilty over and I am spiking now. I have actually went through some of my roomates and other friends that were girls underwear drawers when they were not there and I feel extremely guilty over this now. I have been feeling tremendous guilt over this now for the past several years and am not even sure if I deserve to be happy in the future as these were real mistakes. I dont know where else to post my feelings on this. Please help me!

What do I do? Anyone ?

hi Tyler...

it also sounds like a remorse to me. i don't know much about fetish. but everyone makes a mistake, so don't beat yourself up about it, you realized that it's not the right thing to do and feel guilty. try to forgive yourself and avoid repeating the same mistake.

you definitely deserve to be happy in the future.

you said that you've had ocd since around 10, so i assumed you have been diagnosed. are you still seeing your psych now?

Yes I was diagnosed at around 13. I no longer see a therapist but have been taking paxil the past 10 years . I just can't seem to get over the self guilt about these events because they actually happened and I'm so ashamed. I have beth feeling guilty everyday now for almost the past 6 months

i'm glad you're on meds. i hope paxil works out for you. try learn from it and as i said... promise to try not to repeat them again. and move on. it's ok really, anyone can make a mistake, even good people