Is This Even OCD? OR AM I AM TRANSSEXUAL?

Hello,

I have serious doubts about my gender and I am scared that I am a transsexual (is this possible in OCD?)

However, my trans worries started with a transgender experience. Me and my friends planned to go to a party as the spice girls so i bought a costume and tried it on in my room. Over the next week I had some weird whirring sensations then a week later I was lying in bed and I thought "I am a transsexual" I had a cold rush through my body and then I had a major breakdown (it was horrid) The thought felt intrusive and scared me a lot

BUT I GUESS I AM KIND OF FEMININE AND I AM GAY WHICH INCREASES THE POSSIBILITY OF ME BEING A TRANSSEXUAL :'(

HELP HELP HELP

This was 3 years ago,

Ever since I have been in a constant panic over whether I am a transsexual or not. At one point I accepted being transsexual and came out to everyone. I think I reached a place of acceptance with the trans thoughts but then I started to get really strong paedohile and incestuous OCD thoughts

I was scared because the paedophile thoughts were similar to the transgender thoughts so I thought it meant that I was a paedophile and inbred in denial or that it was OCD and the transgender thoguhts were OCD too.

Sometimes I get images in my head of my genitals damaged or of blood coming out of them. Sometimes I get it for other body parts but mainly genitals, is this a sign of transsexualism?

Also I have heard of adult-onset transsexualism where people find out as adults, rather than kids (and I think I may have adult-onset)

Before this obsession started I enjoyed being a man and being seen as manly.

Now I am scared about it all

Also I was wtching TV and I had a thought "I want to be a woman" and i have had the thought "I am woman"

These thoughts make me scared and anxious

Although once I read that people with OCD don't enjoy their thoguhts but sometimes I am not sure whether I enjoy any of my trans thoughts or not.

I have tried wearing a dress to see how I feel, as a form of "checking" The first time I felt nothing but the last few days I felt slightly less stressed when I wore it and I think I liked the silkiness but the stress reduction was only minor. Also when i took it off I felt really happy, the most recent time

I am worried that everything I have written is just going to trick you into thinking I have OCD, when really I am transgender

I have struggled with this for years, I dunno what to do.

hi FreshGuy.. i think you won't and can't find the answer to your question, OCD is doubting disease so you'll keep questioning yourself. hmm.. i'm sorry for your pain but i can't give you reassurance and i wish i had better answers for you but one thing i realized when i learned to manage my OCD, you can't beat your OCD if you can't tolerate the uncertainty.

FreshGuy wrote:Hello,

I have serious doubts about my gender and I am scared that I am a transsexual (is this possible in OCD?)

However, my trans worries started with a transgender experience. Me and my friends planned to go to a party as the spice girls so i bought a costume and tried it on in my room. Over the next week I had some weird whirring sensations then a week later I was lying in bed and I thought "I am a transsexual" I had a cold rush through my body and then I had a major breakdown (it was horrid) The thought felt intrusive and scared me a lot

BUT I GUESS I AM KIND OF FEMININE AND I AM GAY WHICH INCREASES THE POSSIBILITY OF ME BEING A TRANSSEXUAL :'(

HELP HELP HELP

This was 3 years ago,

Ever since I have been in a constant panic over whether I am a transsexual or not. At one point I accepted being transsexual and came out to everyone. I think I reached a place of acceptance with the trans thoughts but then I started to get really strong paedohile and incestuous OCD thoughts

I was scared because the paedophile thoughts were similar to the transgender thoughts so I thought it meant that I was a paedophile and inbred in denial or that it was OCD and the transgender thoguhts were OCD too.

Sometimes I get images in my head of my genitals damaged or of blood coming out of them. Sometimes I get it for other body parts but mainly genitals, is this a sign of transsexualism?

Also I have heard of adult-onset transsexualism where people find out as adults, rather than kids (and I think I may have adult-onset)

Before this obsession started I enjoyed being a man and being seen as manly.

Now I am scared about it all

Also I was wtching TV and I had a thought "I want to be a woman" and i have had the thought "I am woman"

These thoughts make me scared and anxious

Although once I read that people with OCD don't enjoy their thoguhts but sometimes I am not sure whether I enjoy any of my trans thoughts or not.

I have tried wearing a dress to see how I feel, as a form of "checking" The first time I felt nothing but the last few days I felt slightly less stressed when I wore it and I think I liked the silkiness but the stress reduction was only minor. Also when i took it off I felt really happy, the most recent time

I am worried that everything I have written is just going to trick you into thinking I have OCD, when really I am transgender

I have struggled with this for years, I dunno what to do.

Oh man

You are NOT femenine, gay, transexual or any #######4

I have thought of that before because I have had a very intense OCD in the past. It's been weakened though. And you might ask "How?"

Well what I did was this:

My OCD mind: "See? You are gay after all!"

Me: "You know what? I don't give a ###$ anymore. I just can't live with it. It's just so frustrating that I might let myself be gay before this OCD #######4!!"

(moments later)
*spike*

My OCD mind: "You are gay... but you just yelled at me for questioning your sexuality?"

Me: "(Oh god that is true, that made me gay) I DON'T CARE ANYMORE!"


(days later)

My OCD mind: "That made you gay... But I..."

suddenly that anxiety in me is slowly weakened.

And then I just realize how every single time I asked myself if I was gay for something that happened was crap! It was just over-emphasizing situations and circumstances.

crazydoodle wrote:

Oh man

You are NOT femenine, gay, transexual or any #######4

I have thought of that before because I have had a very intense OCD in the past. It's been weakened though. And you might ask "How?"

Well what I did was this:

My OCD mind: "See? You are gay after all!"

Me: "You know what? I don't give a ###$ anymore. I just can't live with it. It's just so frustrating that I might let myself be gay before this OCD #######4!!"

(moments later)
*spike*

My OCD mind: "You are gay... but you just yelled at me for questioning your sexuality?"

Me: "(Oh god that is true, that made me gay) I DON'T CARE ANYMORE!"


(days later)

My OCD mind: "That made you gay... But I..."

suddenly that anxiety in me is slowly weakened.

And then I just realize how every single time I asked myself if I was gay for something that happened was crap! It was just over-emphasizing situations and circumstances.

Thanks, I just don't know anymore. People with OCD have compulsions but I don't seem to have any The only things I have are checking

I don't really do avoidance behaviours or anything.

On a few occasions I hid scissor from views because I was worried of cutting off my dick and I was worried I would do it

But I haven't done that for months

Also I am gay, I knew that before I had OCD I enjoy relationships with men.

I am just scared I am a transgender, I can't take this stress anymore

Wow you Sound more OCD than trans to me.

This is just something you're going to have to figure out. In another thread you say you've researched. Has this included talking gender tests? The cogiati test? Talking to a therapist?

Also, there more than one kind of trans. Do you think you want to go full op? Something in between? Maybe you just enjoy the crossdressing?

I'm OCD too but I've never felt too upset over being trans. Why?

Tested the crap out of myself. I'm about a 2.5 on the Kinsey so I'm bisexual to an extent. I tried the cogiati, it said I was a probable transvestite. Most gender tests put me about equally male and female.

Now there are times in the past that I thought about being, for lack of a better term and I know many trans genders hate the word, shemale. Thought I wanted boobs bad enough to think about estrogen. Every now and again I still get an attack of the boob-envies.

I used to worry over it. Now I know online tests have to be taken with a grain of salt but they have their use. For me I didn't have to follow up with a therapist. They pegged me pretty well.

What I'm getting at is no matter what I feel at any given moment..... I know how I test on the gender spectrum. I can point to them and remind myself what I really am and where I fall in the scheme of things. If you've tested yourself then you should have at least some idea, or at least a basis to present to a therapist. If not then start with some good online tests to see just how girl or not you are. Then you can tell these obsessive thoughts to go to hell, or else know you need to seriously think... Not obsess but logically consider... Going forward with as much transition as you feel comfortable with. But stop thinking you're all dirty and stuff if you really are trans. You're not.