scary obsession with the number 6, the devil, supernatural signs, coincidence etc.

I'm not in the right mind to post at the moment, so imma try to make this quick and simple as possible. I basically have an obsession with the number 6 being the devil's number and supernatural stuff etc.

Here's the detail:

Im currently getting to know a new wonderful girl who lives in another country.

we're growing very close, and the closer we get, i have this thing where i like to look at photos of her, to have fantasies of her being in the room with me.

A few days ago, On a particular day, I get this urge to do this after reading one of her emotional messages which shows she loves and cares about me. I read the message repeatedly, it made me feel good, and i suddenly wanted to have that fantasy. (Note: To do this, i first usually try to click the first photo that gives me the best fantasy or makes me feel a certain way and go from there)

I instantly go to the photo gallery on my phone feeling a rush of euphoria, but also plagued with a strong weird positive type of impulsive feeling/thought which seem to be coming from the devil that say: "im gonna make this relationship work for you," so now im hesitant to click the first photo, cause i feel by me doing this, im listening to the devil, and he would be responsible, but at the same time i also feel like i want to listen, it's like i like it.

It's basically a weird feeling of good sensations mixed with a little anxiety (although it doesnt seem like there's any)
It's an impulse type feeling which makes you feel like you wanna just do it, but not want too, because it's feels like the devil talking. It's like you're listening to your thoughts and actually like them in that moment, and just wanna let it happen, but you know the consequences. If i go through with this, the devil is gonna make her completely fall for me. It would be because of the devil. And i don't want that.

As i go into the gallery, all of the feelings i described above over whelm me. i scroll to the right of her photos, then i stop. What's on my mind is what photo is gonna give me the best feeling to have this fantasy of her (Basically which look of her will interest me more for today) so i have to make a choice before i click on one. But because of all the impulsive type feelings i described above and also now with a little more anxiety,
i'm suddenly thinking: the photo i click on cant be with a number 6.

So i desperately want to look at my girl, but the photo can't be a 6. I desperately want to click a photo, and as i get closer, i have this automatic thought in my head (sort of like deals and bets) that basically say if the photo I click has a 6, she's going to die and there's no way to reverse it. (At this point there's offical anxiety)

I challenge the bet, saying: there's no way it's gonna be a 6, (like what are the odds?) but what do you know. The photo i click on, happens to be "16" im panicking now! The official anxiety has blown up now. I instantly exit out of photo gallery to come back in to try another photo.

As i come back in, Im looking at different photos and once again, trying to see which photo is gonna give me a good enough feeling for a fantasy, so i can click on it. This one photo in particular is giving me a good feeling. I click on it, and it gives me this good feeling of fantasy of imagining her here. So for a minute i sit and have this good fantasy. But suddenly i get this automatic thought in my mind that tells me that i need to check to see the number of the photo, to see if it's a 6 in anyway. And once again, even more than last, i'm freaked out! Because i discover the photo is number "6"

I freak out, but i try my best to get over it, but i later get so stressed, that i have to google: "is 666 really the number of the devil?" I google it, because i remember long ago, (when i googled this) that it was said that another number was actually the devil's number, but i forgot it, and i wanted to see how true either one of the numbers were, as far as being associated with the devil, and also discover the exact number again. As an agnostic, i wanted reasurance, basically just to hear again that it's bull $#%^, you know?

But what i find next literally destroys me! (It's Exactly what i read long ago, but forgotten) but It states that: "in 2005 a missing part of revelations in the bible was discovered, and it reveals that "616" not "666" is actually the number of the devil. I instantly go into a bigger panick because i realize that the 1st photo i clicked on when coming into the gallery, was "16" and the 2nd one was "6"

And i've been worrying and ruminating trying to figure this out ever since. I can't even talk to this girl, cause i've been on google trying to figure this damn thing out! I've been searching and searching trying to find someone who is going through something similar, but i can't, and i'm so scared. I care about this girl so much, and it's scaring me that something supernatural is happening. And she's in danger or something.

We're both agnostic, and we've had alot of deep heated discussions about how religion doesn't make sense etc. so i've been fearing that it's some type of sign from the supernatural world. Like she's doomed or something. Or we're evil. It's so scary!

Usually i can get over my obsessions, but when something actually happens like this, it makes you think, you know?

And also with my google searches, i've been searching alot on paranormal and poltrigest type stuff, to see if it's real or can be explained scientifically. And im hearing stories about people explaining that this stuff is real, and telling their experiences, and it's just making it worse. All of this started a few days ago.

I know people have gone through things like this before, but mine is more complex. Here's a link of a sufferer who deals with something similar with the feeling thing, but not quite like my situation. Maybe also reading his post can give you an even better understanding.
www.ocdaction.org.uk/forum/obsessive-co ... ht-feeling

This whole thing is making me depressed and suicdal, cause it seems no one has gone through anything similar. So If anyone on this board has gone through anything similar to what i'm dealing with, please respond. Thanks.

hi James.. personally i think it sounds like magical thinking from what you're describing. i've gone through something similar although not exactly the same. (the OCD theme is unique for each individual)

yours are 6/666, i avoid 4,7,13. i like 3,9,5. but i have a lot of odd magical thoughts so i understand how you feel. you're not alone in this. though i am sorry you're going through this.

in terms of 'is 666 the number of the devil?' is hard to answer, because i think it depends on the person and their perspective. so i'm not surprised when i read your statement about people explaining that is real and their experience.

i have nothing against 6. in fact, 6 used to be my fav number after 9. when i did something according to 6, nothing bad has ever happened to me. really. i avoid 13. not to mention there were many occasions where i had to face 13. but likewise 6, nothing happened.

i am sorry you're feeling so scared but i highly doubt she is in danger. i know it's not easy but stop ruminating about this stuff, just plan a date!

hang in there, things can get better. i hope you feel better soon.

Hello james, my ocd revolves around very similar things to you, i.e., the number 6, the devil, coincidences, causing harm to people, etc.. I have also had the doubts about what was motivating my feelings. I will want to do something, but then wonder why.

And like you, I'm not really religious. I won't go on about myself, but I wanted you to know that I have had very similar thought patterns to you.

I'm female, and a narcissist, as well as having ocd. My ocd kicked in when I was 19, just after I lost my virginity. It involved sexuality, religion, the devil, and of course, I couldn't explain to my boyfriend at the time what was happening. I didn't understand it myself.

I wish you well; perhaps you could tell your girlfriend that you have ocd?

all the best,

bitty.

I just wanted to add - please stop googling stuff, and researching the things that worry you! I won't touch that stuff with a bargepole, or even read newspaper articles about it. We've got enough worries on our plates, without scaring ourselves witless into the bargain.

Please contact your girlfriend - don't let ocd form a barrier between you. And please find a therapist to talk to about this. There are good books about ocd as well.

james334 wrote:I'm not in the right mind to post at the moment, so imma try to make this quick and simple as possible. I basically have an obsession with the number 6 being the devil's number and supernatural stuff etc.

Here's the detail:

Im currently getting to know a new wonderful girl who lives in another country.

we're growing very close, and the closer we get, i have this thing where i like to look at photos of her, to have fantasies of her being in the room with me.

A few days ago, On a particular day, I get this urge to do this after reading one of her emotional messages which shows she loves and cares about me. I read the message repeatedly, it made me feel good, and i suddenly wanted to have that fantasy. (Note: To do this, i first usually try to click the first photo that gives me the best fantasy or makes me feel a certain way and go from there)

I instantly go to the photo gallery on my phone feeling a rush of euphoria, but also plagued with a strong weird positive type of impulsive feeling/thought which seem to be coming from the devil that say: "im gonna make this relationship work for you," so now im hesitant to click the first photo, cause i feel by me doing this, im listening to the devil, and he would be responsible, but at the same time i also feel like i want to listen, it's like i like it.

It's basically a weird feeling of good sensations mixed with a little anxiety (although it doesnt seem like there's any)
It's an impulse type feeling which makes you feel like you wanna just do it, but not want too, because it's feels like the devil talking. It's like you're listening to your thoughts and actually like them in that moment, and just wanna let it happen, but you know the consequences. If i go through with this, the devil is gonna make her completely fall for me. It would be because of the devil. And i don't want that.

As i go into the gallery, all of the feelings i described above over whelm me. i scroll to the right of her photos, then i stop. What's on my mind is what photo is gonna give me the best feeling to have this fantasy of her (Basically which look of her will interest me more for today) so i have to make a choice before i click on one. But because of all the impulsive type feelings i described above and also now with a little more anxiety,
i'm suddenly thinking: the photo i click on cant be with a number 6.

So i desperately want to look at my girl, but the photo can't be a 6. I desperately want to click a photo, and as i get closer, i have this automatic thought in my head (sort of like deals and bets) that basically say if the photo I click has a 6, she's going to die and there's no way to reverse it. (At this point there's offical anxiety)

I challenge the bet, saying: there's no way it's gonna be a 6, (like what are the odds?) but what do you know. The photo i click on, happens to be "16" im panicking now! The official anxiety has blown up now. I instantly exit out of photo gallery to come back in to try another photo.

As i come back in, Im looking at different photos and once again, trying to see which photo is gonna give me a good enough feeling for a fantasy, so i can click on it. This one photo in particular is giving me a good feeling. I click on it, and it gives me this good feeling of fantasy of imagining her here. So for a minute i sit and have this good fantasy. But suddenly i get this automatic thought in my mind that tells me that i need to check to see the number of the photo, to see if it's a 6 in anyway. And once again, even more than last, i'm freaked out! Because i discover the photo is number "6"

I freak out, but i try my best to get over it, but i later get so stressed, that i have to google: "is 666 really the number of the devil?" I google it, because i remember long ago, (when i googled this) that it was said that another number was actually the devil's number, but i forgot it, and i wanted to see how true either one of the numbers were, as far as being associated with the devil, and also discover the exact number again. As an agnostic, i wanted reasurance, basically just to hear again that it's bull $#%^, you know?

But what i find next literally destroys me! (It's Exactly what i read long ago, but forgotten) but It states that: "in 2005 a missing part of revelations in the bible was discovered, and it reveals that "616" not "666" is actually the number of the devil. I instantly go into a bigger panick because i realize that the 1st photo i clicked on when coming into the gallery, was "16" and the 2nd one was "6"

And i've been worrying and ruminating trying to figure this out ever since. I can't even talk to this girl, cause i've been on google trying to figure this damn thing out! I've been searching and searching trying to find someone who is going through something similar, but i can't, and i'm so scared. I care about this girl so much, and it's scaring me that something supernatural is happening. And she's in danger or something.

We're both agnostic, and we've had alot of deep heated discussions about how religion doesn't make sense etc. so i've been fearing that it's some type of sign from the supernatural world. Like she's doomed or something. Or we're evil. It's so scary!

Usually i can get over my obsessions, but when something actually happens like this, it makes you think, you know?

And also with my google searches, i've been searching alot on paranormal and poltrigest type stuff, to see if it's real or can be explained scientifically. And im hearing stories about people explaining that this stuff is real, and telling their experiences, and it's just making it worse. All of this started a few days ago.

I know people have gone through things like this before, but mine is more complex. Here's a link of a sufferer who deals with something similar with the feeling thing, but not quite like my situation. Maybe also reading his post can give you an even better understanding.
http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forum/obses ... ht-feeling

This whole thing is making me depressed and suicdal, cause it seems no one has gone through anything similar. So If anyone on this board has gone through anything similar to what i'm dealing with, please respond. Thanks.

I can relate to this. I've had VERY similar themes in the past. I'm doing so much better now because of Prozac. I'm on a high dose, first 60mg and then they raised it to 80mg to be sure, (and OCD takes a high dose to feel it), and it took the 2 months to start working that they told me it would, but now I'm free. I'm happy for the first time in years.