Newly Diagnosed - Is Anyone Else Like Me?

Hi all, I'm new to the forums. I did a google search for OCD forums and found this great website. My therapist, who is awesome, has told me that I have OCD symptoms over the past few sessions. Yesterday, he got out his textbook and read the entire page to me, and every single thing he read out loud, was totally me. I took it hard to hear the truth. I kept saying that it was just a phase until he confirmed it to me from a professional stand point, and then I was very emotional. I've also been diagnosed as bipolar and suffering from major depression. I have suffered from a lot of things in my life, but I am 37 years old and none of these things really showed up until the past few years, when I was really sick.

Now, I've overcome all of my physical medical problems. My questions are, do any of you ever create scenarios in your mind, almost like a contest, and if you don't win this contest, something negative will be the consequences, whether it's you or someone you know and love? For example, two days ago, I was listening to the radio. This situation immediately popped into my head that if I don't sing the next three songs perfectly, then I will get physically sick again and eventually die. Another example; I go to my sisters house every night. I come upon this bridge in the woods. As soo, as this bridge comes into view, I have this scenario that if I don't pray and say amen before I go over the bridge, that a deer will run out in front of my and cause me to wreck. These are just a couple of examples and there are many many that will also popped into my head and it's exhausting each day to deal with. Does anyone else deal with these things? Please reply if you do, it will help to reassure me that I'm not just completely weird.

hi JPOCD

actually there are many things i want to share but i'm running a fever now. so i can't focus at the moment. i'm sorry.

but i'm truly sorry for what you are going through. and please know that you're not weird. at all. and you are not alone in this. yeah and i can relate to your situation, i've been dealing with ocd-magical thinking almost my whole life. it may not exactly the same like yours. but yeah i'm dealing with these 'scenarios' in my head. a lot of themes. i can't even count it.

and i'm glad you're being treated and that you've found us. i really hope you will find some help here

good luck on your ocd journey

Thanks for the reply. I'm sorry about your fever and hope you feel better soon. You did make me feel better and thank you for that. I've tried making myself realize today how many of these scenarios I come up with today, and it was like I created one at every turn or action. It's exhausting having these things constantly running through your head! But at least I know I'm not alone. Again, thank you.

you're more than welcome. and thank you (: yes i know it's exhausting. but you will get through this, just give it some time. and if there's anything i can do to help,please let me know.