ANXIETY:Pedophile thought while in the Dentist Chair today.

I was reading an article this weekend about a pedophile who molested his 7 year old niece. It described in detail the steps he went through, and was quite disturbing and I didn't finish it because it was quite disturbing to me. I had actually forgot about it until I was in the Dentist chair today. Then I thought about it, and my mind instantly went to what if I have those thoughts, does that mean I'm like him, and then I had thoughts of having sex with an nondescript 7 year old. I didn't even know it was really possible, but then I started to imagine it. Then I knew I should keep thinking about it as an exposure exercise for CBT, but then became anxious, because I thought what if this means that I like it or something, or that I may start to like it. I knew this was false, but the thought appeared instantly and right along with it came the anxiety and depression or self loathing.

Then I went to another weird thought. I pictured black rubbery material (like black spaghetti) coming out of my Dentist's mouth and then essentially pulling her to the corner of the dentist office (Seemed like something out of the Matrix). Then the thought of this substance kept shooting out of her vagina and anus and filling the room. I was in the dentist's chair thinking to myself, man am I losing my mind?