It's hard to understand

I've never realized I had OCD until recently. But looking back, I always was a person that thought too much, since a kid. I obsess about many things.

But none of that used to affect me until 5 months ago. I've had intrusive thoughts about many things, but I always ignored it. Until I started to have the worst kind, the sexual ones.

Basically, I started to have the fear of being attracted to everything that wasn't normal. I know that I am not, but everytime I trigger appears I get a response from my body. Sometimes its the heart and even sometimes in the groinal area. The last one is messing me up. Why does my body react like that to something that I know I don't like and bothers me?
Sometimes it isn't even sexual.

Now I can't look around places like I used too, I walk weird, and I get obsessed with everything that makes me doubt about my sexuality.
How do I know if I'm experiencing actual arousal or its just anxiety. How do I know if I'm a weirdo or not?

note: I used to fap everyday and watch a lot of porn. Maybe is that why I'm experiencing those symptoms?

If you are diagnosing yourself with OCD, hold off. Sometimes it can be helpful to match up symptoms we having, with something that can give us some clarity and deeper understanding of what those symptoms mean. But it can also lead us an unnecessary journey away from what really might be happening, or other things that OCD doesn't define.

That said, a combination of fear/anxiety, and sexual confusion can be part of OCD. The anxiety can cause groinal responses we don't think should be happening. When my anxiety is high, so goes my sexual feelings, making me feel aroused at ever turn. I have also seen it go the other way, where someone's sexual desires tank or get locked up somehow.

One big things - STOP WATCHING PORN. It can cause all sorts of problems. It certainly can helo fuel sexual confusion as well as intensifying anxiety.

You are not a weirdo. But if this persists or gets worse, please see a doctor. I know that might seem like the end of the world, but for many (including me), it was the beginning of a new, better, world.

Otter.

Thank you so much for this reply. It means a lot, honestly. I'm currently partaking in NoFap to get rid of the PMO addiction. I hope it helps