Hocd & Gad please help?

Okay so about 46 days ago I took a pill with friends which was either pma or Mda
And I was fine until about 3hours into the trip where I started overheating and feeling like I was gonna pass out or die, so I phoned for an ambulance and was taken to the ER and kept in over night the next day I was fine I even walked home, the next day I was good, then the day after I called xgirlf who is currently my girlf to come and stay over with me and so I went to meet her we were waiting for a bus when I drank a rock star(monster) then got a weird gut feeling, which I shook off, we got back to mine relaxed rolled a J and after my second toke I got the feeling again but like x20 I thought It was trapped air or something, so I just went to sleep. The next day I woke up earlier than usual with the feeling still at max, so I phoned for an ambulance, all vitals safe nothing wrong, and so I went and stayed at home with my mum for a while the feeling got less physical but thoughts were still ruining my life, I made an appointment with my gp, and thus told him in detail what I'd done and how I was feeling (to an extent)
So here's the damage guys
- MDMA powder finger dabbed about 10times within the space of 2months
-Smoked pretty potent weed for 18months and for the last 6months it's been 2grams a day at worst
-and then the pill which was most probably pma in hand with a lot of weed and a few beers

So basically I get anxious very easy, I'm an emotional wreck I'm always upset and then sometimes I'm ecstatic and feel good and then it's back to worrying, I'm verily easily startled, less if not completely not sociable I've had some horrible thoughts they're a mix of
-What if I become a drug addict
-what if I become an alcoholic
-what if I end up self harming because of this
-what if I end up doing things things to go hospital so I feel safe
-what if I'm schizophrenic
-what I become a peado
And the latest is questioning my sexuality although I'm 100% not attracted to men, I still have intercourse with my girlf which I thoroughly enjoy and plan to spend the rest of my life with her I just can't shake the feeling ill never be happy or like my self prior to the bad experience. If anyone can help ill be so happy thank you.

Also to add I have less inerrant in things I used to enjoy I find it hard to become aroused unless there's intimate touching or so, wasn't sleeping well for the first 2weeks gp prescribed me zopliclone which got me sleeping again.

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The last question is the one that concerns me. It tells me you have the beginnings of POCD. As such, you need to know that nobody who ever gets POCD is ever pedo. You get that OCD because it's what you fear, what everyone fears, but regardless of whether or not there is reason to fear it, your OCD will attempt very, very hard to convince you that all your fears are correct, which they of course are not.

No problem was ever solved via OCD, no truth was ever found. It corrupts your logic and you can't see it or tell even if you sit and try really hard to think clearly, it hides counterarguments and counter-evidence and only shows you what it wants you to see to keep the fear and pain going. The sooner you accept that this is true for all OCD and all obsessions, the better.

Those various substances you are using are probably going to make the OCD worse. Just stop taking them and you aren't a drug addict. However, because you were/are fearing it as a semi-obsession, it means you will not allow it to happen. Self-medicating OCD usually ends very badly. Stop doing all the recreational substances. Alcohol probably isn't too useful for OCD either. :^|

Go eat some raw sunflower seeds, buy Brain Lock by Jeffrey M. Schwartz, and read these:
obsessive-compulsive/topic103176.html
obsessive-compulsive/topic144944.html

Hello thank you for the reply, I haven't consumed anything since my panic on the night of getting home. That's when all the physical symptoms dissipated, it's mainly just all in my head now a lot of its really getting me down, I have therapy lined up but the wait is horrible is there no way this could be substance induced and reverse now that I've started abstinence? should I further inform my gp, meds, anything? Sorry to sound so desperate it's all fairly new to me. I've read online people have has similar experience and returned to "normal" in around 5-7 months. But then I'll read somewhere else people don't recover for years.. All I seem to do is read now.