by boohan » Fri Jun 27, 2014 5:01 pm
Greetings to all! I'm a 22 year old male.Couple of days ago (3-4) days,after watching porn,out of nowhere i asked myself,is it possible that i'm gay? It sounds stupid since i've never been attracted to males,only girls,my whole life.I know that i'm not gay,but i'm still thinking about it almost constantly.The thing is when i'm out with friends the thoughts almost go away,but deep down inside i'm still thinking about it.I'm not attracted to males,i know that,i've never been attracted.When i see a man (anyone of my friends) i don't have sexual thoughts about them.It sounds weird,but i'm still wondering.And yes,let me point out that i've never had severe OCD in my life,maybe a little sometimes but almost non-existant.This thoughts came out of nowhere.The thoughts mostly come when i'm at home alone,and especially when i try to sleep at night.It's like i try to picture scenarios with mens but it doesn't attract me at all.I watch porn and only focus on the girl,never cared about the men.And after reading some of the topics on HOCD today,i'm more obsessed now that these thoughts will haunt me for a long time than i'm obssesed about the thoughts themself(don't know if you understand,it's weird i know) Is this HOCD? Or is it just some stress because i haven't worked in a while and i'm not in college.If it is,any advices? Thanks a lot,i would really appreciate some help.Looking forward to your answers.