transgender ocd

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djslanty wrote:I'm going through the same thing, and it seems to have taken over every thing in my life.
I analyze my movements, my voice, my thoughts, my past (even though there is no evidence). When I text people or do anything my mind tells me that everything I do is girly, and gives me constant cognitive distortions and judges everything I do and measures it based on masculinity and feminine.

-- Sun Jul 27, 2014 1:52 pm --

This ocd also gives me thoughts of severe doubt and need for certainty, along with the feeling of denial just as it did with HOCD, POCD, ROCD, HARM-OCD, etc.
It makes me feel guilty and anxious when I do something inherently masculine (I love working out).

-- Sun Jul 27, 2014 1:54 pm --

HOCD gave me the instrusive thoughts of being a feminine guy thus did many of the same analytical crap TOCD is doing, only sexuality is one thing, feeling that you're losing your gender is another , I don't want to lose myself, I want myself to come back.

i'm sorry to here that you are currently suffering from this type of ocd, it really is a very stressful ocd theme, the only advice i can give you is that if you never had any gender discomformity you aren't transgender, i stopped all compulsions i had with this type of ocd and i can pretty much laugh if anyone told me i was transgendered now, also you have to know it's ocd and try not paying to much atention to it. i know it was just ocd with me because before tocd i was having hocd and i guess that my ocd decided to switch themes again and now i'm right back in hocd's grip, for me this hocd is much worse than tocd. it's just ocd TRUST ME.

I am also going through same thing. I started worrying what if i was a gay as i have always been straight. I started feeling feminine and suddenly a Transgender thought poped in my mind and it has been making me sick. I dont want to be a women. I always had live very happy straight male life but these thoughts makes me feel real. I dont know what to do.

I see posts all over the web with people searching out certainty and needing reassurance, which is concerning to me and others who suffer this form of OCD , as you hear things as silly as "I LIKED THE COLOUR PINK AS A BOY , I MUST BE TRANS!!" .... how is that an answer to your confusion? It's not.. it's a state of which someone analyses their past to get some sort of certainty and reassurance (which is a mental compulsion). Yet people will do this day in and day out , either searching on the web, searching their history , searching for any sign of anything of any theme of OCD they may have.
It's self defeating and quite frankly a huge problem with psychiatric evaluations when it comes to OCD or PURE-O for that matter.

The biggest "clue" (trigger-warning of an obvious mental compulsion) That I would ever have of possibly SECRETLY being a woman haha.. is that I had HOCD before this, which made me fear that I was turning gay , you know what I did when I had that fear? looking for any hint that I may be gay through my past, movements, speech, etc. Which there was no hint , but I would still compulsively and daily analyze my past and present for anything , false memories would at times happen, but was just a quickly debunked the moment I accepted the posibility of that BEING a memory.

Here's something I've been working on , it's a rewrite of Jon Hershfield, MFT on HOCD (Sexual Orientation OCD): Part One. Only this will be reflective on TOCD.

It Follows the same rules as other forms of OCD of course. IT has the obsession, an unwanted intrusive thought:
.The fear of turning trans (into a gender not of your own)
.Fear of being seen as feminine (womanly) or masculine (if a woman)
.Fear that your actions/movements are feminine/manly.
.Fear of being in denial (or secretly trans , even you don't know about it
.Fear of losing gender identity
.Fear of sounding feminine (or manly if a woman)
.Fear that the intrusive thoughts means something.

It's not just "what if I'm trans" If it were that easy, you could put it to rest with. "Well I'll just be trans self,
and then be cool with it." It's a fear of being trapped, of losing your sense of self, It's a fear of your original gender
somehow getting lost in a metamorphosing trans mind. Never being able to return to that connection you once had with your
Identity and seeing the same and opposite sex the same way and feeling responsible for not realizing it in time.