Is this my OCD?

I really hate the idea of being bisexual and I can't accept the idea of being bisexual. I used to identify as bisexual, but I suddenly got disgusted with the idea of being bisexual. I can't really think of one good reason why I'm disgusted with the idea of being bi.

When I was about twelve I started noticing an attraction to girls. I thought it was a phase and I really hated the idea of being gay. I wasn't attracted to guys so I never considered the idea of being bi. When I was fourteen I accepted that I was attracted to girls.

I tried to come out as gay, but everyone said it was just a phase. After that I developed HOCD. The HOCD made me think I was bi. I still can never be sure if I'm attracted to guys or not. I sometimes feel like I'm turned on by looking at guys, but I've always felt grossed out when I actually had a chance to do anything. Some people think that I'm bi and in denial. I really don't want to be bi and I don't know why.

Dont know...a very careful asses meant is required to understand HOCD, as there are chances that even straight people are said to hv HOCD and also the lesbians & gays are said to have this disorder.So a careful assesment would surely help to understand if the person is actually suffering from HOCD.