Is this ocd or repressed homosexuality? help!!

Let me pose a question to you: what if you are gay? So what? What does that MEAN for you? Does the world end?

I know its a scary thought, but try and think about it. If you can tell yourself that being gay really isn't as scary of a thing as you think it is, you won't give a damn whether you're gay or not.

In my personal opinion, you are not gay. Being gay myself, my gaydar isn't picking up a thing.

Good luck

HelpMeSoScared wrote:Those tests are full of crap. I did them when I was 16 and they came out "you are a lesbian" "you are bisexual" "you are straight" for different ones. In the end of it, I know I want my boyfriend, I love his anatomy, and his body, and he makes me happy, and I love him!
I had a very triggering homosexual dream this morning and woke up feeling so upset and triggered. Homosexuals enjoy their feelings and images and thoughts and emotions to those of the same sex. If you're not happy with it, it means you're not one of them

Homosexuals do not enjoy their feelings and images and thoughts and emotions to those of the same sex. Where do you get such nonsense? Only homosexuals who have already come out enjoy that, many in the closet gays absolutely hate those feelings and wish to God they weren't gay. Many homosexuals tell stories of completely hating themselves and hating their gay feelings when they first discovered that they felt this attraction to the same sex. There is so much disinformation in this OCD sub-forum everytime the HOCD topic comes up. How could anyone seriously think that all gays woke up one day and said "HOORAY! I'm different from the majority!" Most gays describe their process of accepting their homosexuality as being an extremely difficult and painful process.

At KevinG:
You still fail to see the difference between homosexuality and HOCD. If homosexuality to you is being aroused by members of the opposite sex your whole life, having intrusive uncontrolling thoughts about homosexuality once OCD hits, having no arousal towards the same sex, fearing the idea of being attracted to members of the same sex in that way,etc. Bottom line is I truly believe homosexuality is much healthier than this, it is always being attracted to the same sex, knowing this because you experience arousal and excitement and erections constantly towards the same sex would constitute someone being gay. Whether they hid this from the public is their choice, and that's what living in denial is, it's knowing you are gay and not wanting to tell yourself or god forbid anyone else. I just don't see how people who have always loved and been attracted to the opposite sex can all of a sudden just be gay, but like OCD it doesn't make sense, because it's irrational. Whatever your OCD is themed on it will attach onto whatever's important in your life. I think mine stemmed from one reason. As a kid growing up with my friends I was the one who always got the hottest girl, because I am better looking than most of my friends. For whatever reason I struggled in early college and wasn't getting as much girls and I guess just kinda fell off, smoked too much pot, and my brain took off. That's when HOCD hit me as it started with one simple thought I never had once even imagined before. Not once. And it didn't come because I got an erection over a guy or did something sexual with one, it started simply because of a thought and spiraled down from there. I think HOCD tries to also attack when your more vulnerable confidence and self esteem wise, as an OCD voice tries to beat up on you and find it's way around every corner to make you doubt yourself and keep it's cycle going .

You fail to understand what goes on with OCD , these are anxious minds that suffer. Once again you claim your bisexual but never want to explain how you came to this conclusion and how you accepted yourself. Most OCD sufferers including myself don't have a problem with gay people, it's not a case of homophobia and not facing your "homosexual desires" because they don't exist, they are thoughts that interfere with everyday life. If you were gay they would be apart of you naturally, they wouldn't be constantly questioned and analyzed. You clearly have no idea what it's like to suffer from HOCD and this is what really bothers me because it is torture. And like I said I myself and hope all HOCD sufferers come to this point one day that their is nothing wrong with being gay. That in itself is part of the problem with an OCD sufferer, to accept the uncertainty and be okay with your fear. Once you reach this point you see things in a different light. Remember, you have control over your actions, no matter what, and that is a comfort to people who live so much of their lives in their head.