am I a sociopath?

Okay so I have pure O OCD and recently I've become overwhelmed with the thought that I am a sociopath. It seems so weird like I don't really care about anyone. I can get sad and all that but not very often anymore. I've gotten to the point to where I fake my emotions so my om doesn't think I'm a sociopath, too. It seems like I have trouble experiencing emotions for real life people now ( I usually only feel things for fictional characters in books, etc. ) It seems like I do everything for attention now. I seem to only feel emotions when something drastic happens. Like if I thought my brother was going to die because of me, I get really scared but in everyday life I feel very cold hearted. I can feel happiness still and sadness but only every once in a while and I just end up feeling sorry for myself. I don't want to be a sociopath because my dad is a sociopath and no one likes him. I feel like I don't connect emotionally with peope and I feel manipulative. What do I do? I'm feeling very confused about this.

There is a lot more to being a sociopath. What you described could easily be symptoms of depression.

Also, when I do cry, it can be for very weird reasons? For example, I was watching a documentary on Vincent Van Gogh and I just started talking about it to my mom and I started crying and I don't know why but I cried for a good ten minutes for Vincent van Gogh. My mom thought it was because I felt that maybe I could relate to himin some way but to me I just was crying for no reason. I don't know why that happened. And recently I've been feeling symptoms of anxiety but I haven't been all that anxiousm I was talking to my mom about it and she thinks my brain is subconsciously hiding my stress but my body is showing it. Is that possible?

I once had a good cry after a van Gogh documentary. It was the following quote that set me off.

What am I in the eyes of most people — a nonentity, an eccentric, or an unpleasant person — somebody who has no position in society and will never have; in short, the lowest of the low. All right, then — even if that were absolutely true, then I should one day like to show by my work what such an eccentric, such a nobody, has in his heart.

That sentiment was close to my heart in the old days and I projected into them. His drawing "Sorrow" is so beautiful and sad that it still makes me very emotional after all these years.

And yes, if we suppress stress or any intense emotion for a period of time, the body will react. Anxiety, depression and other things do not just affect the mind. It affects our whole being.

Otter.

You know, I have had a similar obsession over sociopathy that started when I found out more about it. I have not only persistant thoughts over whether I am a sociopath but also whether other people in my life are sociopaths. The biggest thing I've found out is there are different views of what things would make someone a sociopath. If you look up psychopath test online there are a couple of different free tests I have found that might give you a better idea if you are a sociopath or not. I've scored pretty close but not over the number of points that is required to be a sociopath.

Hey i just wanted you to know that i have been where you are. My 20's were spent worrying about HOCD, ROCD, POCD, Harm OCD, past mistakes and also being a sociopath. I'm 31 now and my only obsession at the minute is the past. I went to CBT and told my doctor that i was worried that i was a sociopath. I explained how i had seen the show Dexter and worried that i could do something like that. Dexter seems to be quite a popular spike on ocd forums haha. I had no emotional connection to people at this time (which was explained by my sheer exhaustion of pure o and depression). She told me first of all i wasn't a sociopath, and neither are you. Sociopaths don't question the fact that they are sociopaths.

I too have watched things on tv and for some reason they set me off crying. As Otter said, it's the bodys way of letting the emotions out. Have you seen a doctor at all for this? It could really help.