I don't know what to do

I've just stopped caring about everything. I have pure o ocd and basically it is really annoying. It went dormant for a while but last night I had a nightmare and I woke up and bam there it is again. wow okay so this sucks, right? Well, apparently not because according to my brain, nothing even matters anymore. I feel like I have no motivation to do anything anymore. Just a few months ago I was working hard to keep my grades up so I'll be able to attend a good college and work on science but recently it feels like I don't care about that any longer. I have no friends, my family doesn't even like me, and I have no one to talk to. So basically, what do I do to be interested in things again and stop having OCD without going to a therapist. (haha get this, my mom wont even let me go to a therapist) I just feel like I laugh at everything but I'm not even happy kind of like I'm laughing at my own pain. I don't know why, nothing makes any sense right now.

I haven't looked at your previous post and forgive me if I have forgotten, but i image these thoughts and feelings are part of a particular OCD funk (certain thoughts) you are having?

Do you suffer depression outside of the OCD? Are you on any medications? Not caring about everything and OCD "being annoying" are two different things. I'm just trying t get an idea of where the pain is coming from and where you want to be, beyond "being better"

Otter.

I think you must force the issue of a therapist. Get on your knees and beg if you have to.
Life gets better after those years you're in now, and you have my deepest sympathy.
PM me if you need to talk. I'll try to respond quickly.