Feel like a phyco

Hey, me again, so yet again my days are worsening, I'm not catching a break what so ever! Sometimes things can last weeks and other things just a few days, just feel so drained with it all now, actually getting to a point to giving up, just because it seems to be beating me in all ways I try to conquer it! Any ways if you have read a few off my last post they have all been towards my wife, and yes you guessed it so is this one!! This one has now gone from you don't love her to your going to kill her( please don't judge me on that) my mind as come up with images, story lines basicly played a movie in my head! And now iv just got to the end off my wit with it, all I want to do is live a normall life like I was before all this, y is my mind making all this stuff up, saying I'm this I'm that I'm going to kill my wife and all the other #######4! I seem to not no fake from reality at the min. Someone if there is anyone help me! Anyone!

This is freakin awsome!!!! Someone going through same stuff as me... feel free to pm me amd we can share stories