Worried about sexual assualt

Hello!
I'm 16, and have been battling OCD, BPD, and depression for a few years now. I occasionally smoke weed with friends, just recreationally, and I worry a lot that I've done something bad while on it. Last night, I smoked weed with my best friend and we went to bed. I kept waking up in the night, while she was asleep. I'm worried I could have sexually assaulted her in her sleep, because I had intrusive thoughts about doing so. I told her I was worried about this the next morning, and she said I didn't, but I'm still really worried. My mother says that if one was molested in their sleep, they would wake up, so I shouldn't worry about it, but it's driving me insane.

You're not alone in this Ringboo. One of the irrational fears is to fear that you did something you didn't do. Although I am mostly through my bad OCD days, I had the same thing happen to me two years ago.

Since you have been diagnosed with OCD (among other things) I imagine you are getting some help for it. Is so, I would suggest tweaking things a bit or talking to your therapist.

And I know this may be no fun, but maybe lay of the weed for a while and see how it goes.

Otter.

Thank you!!! Haha yeah, I don't think I'll be smoking for a very very long time c: