Pregnant, Worst OCD of my life

I have known about having OCD for a few years now. Lately it seemed to be getting a little bit better, but all of the sudden as soon as I found out that I was pregnant it became much worse. I found out I am pregnant the morning before I moved out of my mothers for the first time, a lot of change at once. The most recent obsession and intrusive thoughts before pregnancy have been about being afraid to be near men, I was always terrified I would cheat on my fiancé knowing I never would and never have. We'll now my mind is making me think I cheated on him and this is not his baby. This is killing me. I keep rethinking the last month constantly trying to figure out if anything could have happened. I keep going back to two nights that I drank a little too much but my fiancé reassured me that nothing ever happened because he was there both times. It just can't get this out of my head. I keep telling myself it is OCD but I even doubt that sometimes...I don't know what to do, I don't have the money to go to therapy....

I wouldn't worry a great deal about therapy over this issue. It may be easily resolved with some logical explanations and facts. Personally and from reading, I do think this is your OCD, your pregnancy definitely could have triggered an intense state of OCD too. To me it is an event calling for obsessions to cling onto, especially illogical and extreme problems.

If nothing actually happened and your husband reassured you that nothing has happened, I would try to let this current obsession go, as hard as it may be. Your intense and obsessive doubt isn't abnormal, especially if you do suffer from OCD. I think it's only natural you continue to doubt yourself and the reality of the situation, but just continue to ask your husband about your unprotected sex, dates of intercourse, times, etc. As for the cheating fear and fear based on avoiding men, I understand these fears. Your fear of cheating could be related to ROCD (Relationship OCD) or they can be written down as anxiety riddled, intrusive thoughts which are heavily associated to and are quite common with OCD and Primarily Obsessional OCD.

I definitely think your general fear of men and avoidant pattern are completely anxiety driven, corresponding with your fear of cheating and the doubt of your own pregnancy, this will continue to drive you into operating in isolation because your anxiety and doubt is so intense if not satisfied or convinced, periods like this can be very hard to work through but reassurance and facts are most beneficial. I really can't say too much else about this for now, just ask your husband for anything that can explain your pregnancy. All you may need is some convincing and explanations, that is all it could take for you to accept you haven't cheated on your husband. It will take facts and some work on your behalf, accepting the facts and letting the obsession go.

I'm sorry for being very broad and stating the obvious. I'll continue to respond if you need some help.
All the best for now, Destiny148.

-- Wed Dec 04, 2013 2:30 pm --

I wouldn't worry a great deal about therapy over this issue. It may be easily resolved with some logical explanations and facts. Personally and from reading, I do think this is your OCD, your pregnancy definitely could have triggered an intense state of OCD too. To me it is an event calling for obsessions to cling onto, especially illogical and extreme problems.

If nothing actually happened and your husband reassured you that nothing has happened, I would try to let this current obsession go, as hard as it may be. Your intense and obsessive doubt isn't abnormal, especially if you do suffer from OCD. I think it's only natural you continue to doubt yourself and the reality of the situation, but just continue to ask your husband about your unprotected sex, dates of intercourse, times, etc. As for the cheating fear and fear based on avoiding men, I understand these fears. Your fear of cheating could be related to ROCD (Relationship OCD) or they can be written down as anxiety riddled, intrusive thoughts which are heavily associated to and are quite common with OCD and Primarily Obsessional OCD.

I definitely think your general fear of men and avoidant pattern are completely anxiety driven, corresponding with your fear of cheating and the doubt of your own pregnancy, this will continue to drive you into operating in isolation because your anxiety and doubt is so intense if not satisfied or convinced, periods like this can be very hard to work through but reassurance and facts are most beneficial. I really can't say too much else about this for now, just ask your husband for anything that can explain your pregnancy. All you may need is some convincing and explanations, that is all it could take for you to accept you haven't cheated on your husband. It will take facts and some work on your behalf, accepting the facts and letting the obsession go.

I'm sorry for being very broad and stating the obvious. I'll continue to respond if you need some help.
All the best for now, Destiny148.