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Hi and welcome to the forums.

I also have obsessive thoughts. I think that you may have OCD. With most people when they get thoughts like this they can easily dismiss them, but when you have OCD you will (as you stated) obsess over these thoughts for a ridiculous amount of time. Im not sure if there is anywhere that you can go yourself for help but maybe you should google "pure o ocd" and print out what you find and show it to your mother. Maybe if she see's this she will believe that you may need help. If you dont want to tell her what your thoughts are then just make up thoughts so that she will bring you to see a doctor and you can tell the doctor the real thoughts (they cant tell your mother). I know it is really hard to live with this and I think it would be best for you to get help now. If you need someone to talk to you can PM me and i'll be there for you. Good Luck and I hope things get better.
Take care,
Kayty