I have accepted it... So am I a transsexual?

I have had TOCD for over 1,5years now...

I too would much rather be a confident man without any gender or sexuality issues, than to become a woman.. at least it gives me a lot of hope... but my mind makes me think being a woman would be hot although before this i never thought about being a woman (I'm 23 soon). I dont know how it feels to be a woman so it could be better, i dont know and i dont wanna have these thoughts... but i fear im just in denial and that im missing out on something i should find out about myself, if i dont check on the web.

I had a huge panic attack many weeks ago when i told my parents that i might be trans and then they asked me if i want to change sex and i couldnt answer, i didnt know.. They were very accepting... but i was panicing that i would actually want it but at the same time it felt like i could want it.. that i am just not willing to deal with the social issues regarding changing sex, instead of really not wanting it.. that night i had a huge panic attack, i shook and almost cried..

But then there are days when i try to put this in the back of my head, i feel way more happier as a man, more motivated in living and my thoughts are focused on real life issues.. but when i test to see if i want to be a hot woman, it feels like i could deal with it since i would be attractive unlike now when im an unattractive man.... and i get anxious i feel this way. I'm not feminine or have feminine interests, nor do i feel like i want to in any way.. in my head or dreams, i dont recall ever being a woman.. but i might be wrong i dunno

Does this sound like TOCD to you guys?

Hi Zamyou -

As I understand it TOCD is OCD and OCD is a manifestation of anxiety. It certainly seems like you are suffering from anxiety. Why that is, I don't know.

Have you seen a pdoc? Perhaps you could tell them what is happening. They could address the anxiety, maybe with meds, and then you can work on the confusion you are having regarding sex with a therapist.

Regardless of the reason panic attacks are one of the worst things a human can suffer. I hope you can get help.

Otter.

Heya,

Well i have been on meds for 2yrs soon and have seen both a therapist and psychiatrist.. They dont believe im trans or gay or dont see any logic with my worries.. I used to have HOCD before this and a lot of other OCD issues all my life, but never confusion about my sex / gender or sexuality.
I have been having insecurities with my masculinity and that im not man enough, althought i have wanted to be such.

So do you think im transgender / transsexual? How do you figure?

-- Fri Aug 09, 2013 9:50 pm --

Sry for jacking the post..

Freshguy, if you even havent shown interest in crossdressing already, it seems odd that u want to do such a thing.. its not smth u decide to start with or fear, u would do it to complete ur personality. I know the feeling of thinking that being a girl would work out, just like HOCD:ers sometime think they could have sex with men. But its mostly fulfilling a compulsion... If non-OCD:ers would feel anxiety, they would back up and avoid this... but for us there are always weird reasons to why we think we need to approach the issue, rather than dealing with the OCD itself.