hocd

I am getting extremely angry by this whole thing. I have no desire for women what so ever yet my mind keeps telling me that yes I do! Its like theres another voice. Sex satisfies me but then this voice will say no your not satisfied because you want a woman and then I actually dont feel satisfied. I feel like this is getting worse. Anyone else feeling the same?

Can anyone help?
Been straight all my life but im asking my self if its all just been a lie. Never been diagnosed with pure o but so far ive thought I was a peadophile, lesbian, bisexual, asexual, someone whos going to hurt and attack people and now I feel I would feel contaminated and dirty if I have sex. What actually am i? What if im using pure o as an excuse and im actually all these things! Help

hi we both have hocd...im not yet healed but try to make yourself busy.when you are busy i realized that there is some kind of relief.. hocd always lie and it feels real..at first all i keep on thinking was guys...i cant even look at my brother uncle etc. now im just having a hard time looking on good looking guys which i think is an improvement...im still trying to solve this because i know im almost there to beat my hocd.