OCD preventing me from enjoying anything.

I seem to be getting worse with my OCD. I can't enjoy anything on days where I have problems and intrusive thoughts or the so called sexual obsessions. Which is every day. I actually was given a ps3 for Christmas as one of my gifts. I have always considered myself a gamer and sadly have not been able to try it,at all. I have never waited so long to try games. My problem is that I don't want my memories of trying it to be associated with whatever things go on that day related to the OCD. It may not seem like a big deal but games have always been a favorite thing for me and now I can't enjoy what I love. I don't even feel I can call myself a gamer. I also feel that if I do anything other than try it,say watching tv,to get my mind off things,that I'm being a jerk towards the person who got it for me. It's also affecting other things. I had to completely leave the mall without buying a single thing because I felt that anything I bought would remind me of issues I had that day. I am in therapy but I feel I am just getting worse. I can't do anything that would otherwise help me get my mind off things.

Play your games. Shop at the mall. Do whatever you did before, and used to enjoy.

It doesn't matter if you enjoy it or not. Do it anyway. You'll enjoy it soon enough.

You aren't enjoying things because your mind is too busy obsessing, all your brain power is used for this useless purpose, so you're blocking out positive impulses. This is different from clinical depression where you actually are unable to feel joy.

So, everything you can do to distract your brain from obsessing is positive. There is no reason for trying to "understand" why you are obsessing, in other words, if you are going through childhood memories or bad experiences to correct and understand something, you are probably wasting time. Obsessions are irrational and trying to understand them are just giving them credibility and making the problems worse.

Whenever you're obsessing, just go back to what you did before obsessing. I remember when holding a presentation about 2013 budgets and financials in November, I got a sudden obsession "I might be dead before 2013". The best way to solve this was just to continue with my presentation. And here I am in 2013, fully alive. Obsessions are just your brain churning a piece of crap and shouldn't be given attention... (of course, this is not so easy always).