I fear I may be a narcissist...

I suffer from OCD, but I'm worried I may be a narcissist. Everything just seems to add up. For the past few months I have been fixated on a music obsession. My passion is music. And recently I've been obsessed with other people listening to music, and others enjoying the same music I do. It drives me crazy for some reason. As if I've started to believe I'm the only person on the planet who listens to music, and understands music. I'm sick of feeling like this. I often think I am more intelligent than other people for some reason. I'm obsessed with being the most knowledgable person. I tend to get jealous when other people succeed, and I do not. I'm incredibly cynical. I seem to want to be the best at things. I get jealous of my friends. Jealous when they go out with other friends, I feel angry towards them. Sometimes I think I wouldn't care if I didn't have any friends. I'm so worried about this. What should I do?? When I look back at how I've treated them, and I'm not too sure if I even care. I do horrible things all the time. I take my anger out on my best friend and treat her like $#%^, and belittle her - for no reason. I always say to her 'I don't know why you're friends with me". How do I stop this? I'm so concerned with myself, and what I can get out of things. I just want to die at the moment...

I have this Otis Redding t-shirt. Am when I wear it, I start thinking everybody is looking at me, thinking I'm cool and $#%^. Thinking I'm great cause I'm wearing said t-shirt.

confusedboy18 wrote:I have this Otis Redding t-shirt. Am when I wear it, I start thinking everybody is looking at me, thinking I'm cool and $#%^. Thinking I'm great cause I'm wearing said t-shirt.

I like you.

Maybe we can be friends?

legallyblind wrote:I like you.

Maybe we can be friends?

For once, I agree with you.

@OP: You can tick this worry off your list.

Tell me then - if I'm not a Narcissist, or have a Personality Disorder, how do you explain these feelings, actions?

A hypothesis: you have OCD and you're human. Normal feelings/concerns magnified by obsessive thought patterns. You could be having feelings of normal intensity and perceiving them as abnormal, or maybe initially having feelings of normal intensity but then amplifying them by worrying about them.

I can't tell you that's what's really happening, but you have to at least consider the possibility. There's no need for new explanations when old ones already cover it.

In any case, you wouldn't have described yourself the way you did if you had NPD. It's incredibly unlikely that a narcissist will be worried about having any personality disorder. Even the typical initial reaction to proper diagnosis is total denial.