"I love nobody..."

From what I gleen from your posts, you have learned to love yourself.
'Giving' isn't necessarily loving, just as spoiling a child is a form of neglect,
The steps you've taken for your own survival, true, but also to ensure for yourself the dignified fulfilling and self-respecting life you deserve, are all testaments to your loving yourself, if not first and foremost, surely on even par with others.

The acceptance and forgiveness of yourself, as well as your wise refusal to buy into attitudes of hate and vengence towards those who have hurt you, speak clearly.