im in hell

hi from russia. im 29 and with every day as im ageing i feel more an more PAIN because i never had sex and the expirience for the sake of having which i lived and did everything. when i see young couples i feel that which if i describe it i'll go to jail. my shortest biogrpahy:

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All i wanted in this life was two things: to be busy with work i like and, being socially demanded with it, to be sexually desired by a desired female peer when we are18-25. The first one became composing music and the latter one - impossible thanks to the life i've come to because of the first one. What with my interests and the way of life, i just stayed at home all the years since 2005 and i wasn't needed in the society by anybody, or my work wasn’t demanded and so I didn’t need anybody. That's all. The result is biologically natural: despair and aggression. I'm going to end up very badly. I consider all this topic important, so i write autobiographical chronicles.
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other content about me 2,5million word long diary, video diary, music *mod edit*

people on the internet say i could go on a killing spree. but i cant do that because i need to do music.
im in hell

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