Abuse of MY NPD Father

Beat us when we were very little...
Beating our mother in front of us (children)
Donating all income to people who give him N supply even if that means his own family starving...
Always insulting his own children and wife after damaging them emotionally (already) in front of any one who know the family...

A lot more there

Father was about to go to jail for his frauds but we all prayed he is saved from the trouble because we were dependent on him and after all he was family and we were all too young...

I will post more... need time...

That's too bad, sorry to hear it.

Is he still alive? Was he aware of what he was doing, do you think?

http://youtu.be/Ra-Om7UMSJc

Hi, TheLord,

It's very difficult trusting people with painful experiences, even in an anonymous forum such as this.

I hope you are able to find someone to talk to who can make this period of disclosure less stressful.

I suspect many of us have dark memories. I feel sometimes as if I sit in a folding chair watching an amazing parade go by. Occasionally, I desire to be part of something I see, but can't get up and leave my chair or even fold it and carry it along neatly. We are all in different phases of the process of standing up and folding the chair or leaving it entirely - deciding what we want and then dealing with/bundling/folding up experiences in a way that leads to a positive outlook and capacity to live a satisfying life.

I wish you that freeing sensation I get whenever I realize I've moved to a new perspective on the parade route.

Thanks for sharing that. It really sucks to have an abusive parent. I had two, and mine were more emotionally abusive rather than physically abusive (no scars or bruises so no one believes you). But I don't feel like talking about my FOO right now.

Do you find that by coming here, you are gaining some insight into what happened and how it affected you? Do you feel that it's been helpful? I get a lot of insight by posting here, and the advice given by both the Ns and the nons has been helpful to me. Sometimes it's very painful though, but essentially this is group therapy and it's supposed to hurt sometimes. Do you think you can learn anything useful about yourself and what happened through some of the N's experiences? We're all victims here.