I'm convinced I'm a narcissist and need to vent.

conditional_love wrote:A narcissist doesn't usually dwell on past partners though, they find news ones quickly and have several lined up, some of which he would have already slept with on the side.

lol Funniest thing I've read in ages.

Go on, tell me more...lol

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-- Sat Aug 23, 2014 4:35 pm --

^Beat that, OP

You just sound immature to me (NOT judging, just going off the characteristics you listed It's not unheard of for 20 something's to behave like children or to be selfish. But you are correct that most 20 year olds start to see the light and realize how unattractive and out of balance it all is. You might be narcissistic, but I doubt NPD'd. Maybe you could see a professional to assess whether you might be developmentally lacking with regards to emotions, empathy, etc. It's also a possibility that whoever you were in the relationship with just wasn't a good match for you. Are you "cold" in all of your relationships? Is there a pattern?

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lolidk wrote:N: 4
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Whoa, you are scary.

I have high Machivellian intelligence too, and can be very cunning and manipulative, which is why I often see through most peoples motives and get along with narcs Most people in my family were lawyers and worked in finance. I have a natural capacity to lie that is quite scary, though I rarely exercise it, but the thought pattern is always playing in the background.

^ Were they the Illuminati??

onlytime wrote:You just sound immature to me (NOT judging, just going off the characteristics you listed It's not unheard of for 20 something's to behave like children or to be selfish. But you are correct that most 20 year olds start to see the light and realize how unattractive and out of balance it all is. You might be narcissistic, but I doubt NPD'd. Maybe you could see a professional to assess whether you might be developmentally lacking with regards to emotions, empathy, etc. It's also a possibility that whoever you were in the relationship with just wasn't a good match for you. Are you "cold" in all of your relationships? Is there a pattern?

Yeah, I've accepted how immature I am. I've spoken to my therapist about this but she just says I'm being immature. It's just that this overwhelming anxiety and depression can't be normal. It prompted me to do research and I found that NPD pretty much fits the bill. I've had 3 relationships before my ex, all short. I wasn't as cold with the first 2 (1 month each), but I was cold with the second and she eventually ended things after 2 months. I wasn't really bothered by the break ups. My most recent one was 5 1/2 years and was on and off. The first two break ups weren't hard too hard to handle but they always ended up the same: we'd break up, she would contact me, and we'd reconcile. This time, though, I really tried to remain steadfast. She contacted me twice trying to reconcile, but I declined both times. Then she contacted me a third time, not to reconcile but just to talk, and we've been speaking ever since.

Now I'm in a position of wanting to go back, but knowing it's wrong, and not wanting to move on. I was in a horrible mood just a few minutes ago, but upon recieving a text I feel a bit better, as if the gravity of what is going to ultimately transpire is nothing to worry about. I'm in a fantasy bubble that is maintained by our texts, and I'm petrified of telling her we shouldn't be doing this.

Do you feel you are NPD'd towards everyone or does this one particular situation seem to have you convinced? Do you care about this other person or just the loss of the "fantasy"? It's much more respectable to be honest with someone, even if it means losing them, than to deliberately deceive someone for your own benefit. Also, if you are utterly convinced that you have NPD, I would suggest figuring out how to prove it to your therapist. I'm no expert, but your awareness is encouraging.

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-- Sat Aug 23, 2014 4:35 pm --

^Beat that, OP

HOLY MOLY

crystal_richardson_ wrote:

hillyspace wrote:N - 0.6
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-- Sat Aug 23, 2014 4:35 pm --

^Beat that, OP

HOLY MOLY

I'm super-normal, you jelly?

CHYA