Scrambled Egg or just plain Nutz

Hi all -

I decided to join - perhaps it's nice to think it's ok not to be... normal? Or at least, no illusion to having my 'act' together.

I don't know (at least clinically) what my issues are... disability with SS was a shoo-in, although they wouldn't divulge to me what their doctors said - I don't have my own doctor - couldn't afford one. Now that disability has kicked in I suppose I'll see one, although I don't know where to start.

I hope I don't have early dimentia (my dad went out that way as did one of his sisters) I find that I cannot plan; mulitask: make decisions; cannot sort; clutter drives me up a wall; I definately have short term memory loss (cannot remember 10% of a book or article I have read). I cannot focus; for instance, if someone is telling me directions or explaining something to me, it's all a blur- I nod my head like I am listening to every word, but it goes straight over me.

I stressed out in my career - after 36 years - am totally TOTALLY (with a CAPITAL TOTALLY) burnt to a crisp burned out in my profession. I'd rather not say what I did (past tense - is HISTORY)

I don't doubt that I have some form of ADD.. and earlier in life hyperactivity - although it is my guess the SS doctor didn't want to go down that road, too hard to diagnose for an adult? So short term memory loss is one factor.

I don't face severe depression, I detest drugs of all kinds (have an aversion to drugs.. although I know, if they help you, mpty ... more power to you)

At 61 years of age I guess SS decided this old dog cannot learn new tricks (which is true), and he can't do the tricks he once did. That may be true... the older I get the better I was...

Well, I don't know. What I do know is, I'm all mixed up and few people around me (if anyone) understands how I tick.

Hi ScrambledEgg!

Welcome to Psychforums!
I hope you like it here. I think you'll find many people here who very much understand and can relate to what you're going through.
If you have any questions, please don't hesitate to let me know!

Welcome again and well wishes,

Evol