Newbie - GID and something.. maybe Schizoid.

Hi, I have had Gender Identity Disorder for a long time. I had severe depression whilst I was coming to terms with it. Neither of those things are the reason why I'm here.

I'm here because I'm going through some of the processes again. I remember being 14 and doubting myself, waiting to see if the symptoms would go away. Trying to work out if I had a problem, or if I was going crazy and was actually fine. The slow realisation that this time, it's not going away yet, and it has a large impact on how I live my life. Wondering at what point I talk to people, and feeling like I really can't talk to friends or family etc. about it. Also wondering what happens next - is this the peak of the problems, or is more going to happen? With GID, to begin with I felt wrong, but by the peak I wanted to rip myself apart, as I wanted to hurt something deep inside of me, something unreachable, and it was purely impossible to live as a female. So I became male. But here I am, at 19, going through the same processes of doubt and realisation.

So is what I am experiencing now temporary, or do I have peak to look forward to? Emotions are disappearing, and my desire to interact socially is going the same direction. For now I can play through the motions - pretend to feel things. It's fine. I don't have a problem with how it is at the moment. I just need to understand what is happening to me, that's all.

Hello.

I really have no idea about the answer to your question... Perhaps ask on the GID part of the forum? gender-identity-disorder/

I really just wanted to say hello and welcome. I hope you find it helpful and supportive here...

salted lipstick wrote:Hello.

I really have no idea about the answer to your question... Perhaps ask on the GID part of the forum? gender-identity-disorder/

I really just wanted to say hello and welcome. I hope you find it helpful and supportive here...

Oh GID is all sorted out and finished. Done and done. No issues there now whatsoever. I'm just so glad that I sorted them BEFORE I had New Issues arriving.

I've put a post on the Schizoid forum, so hopefully someone will reply. If I can be slotted into a category, I'll at least have an idea of what could happen next, and what to watch out for. As I have a suspicion that I am still undergoing development of whatever my problem is, it would be more than useful.

But anyway, thanks for your welcome I found this site by accident, and due to it having so many sub-categories, it seems the perfect place to ask people for suggestions of which box I fit into.

Oh ok. Well hopefully someone in the Schizoid section of the forum will reply to your post. That is really good that you are trying to work out what is going on for you before it gets worse. Have you considered speaking to a therapist to see if they can help you with this newly developing problem you are having? Sometimes they can be quite helpful...

salted lipstick wrote:Oh ok. Well hopefully someone in the Schizoid section of the forum will reply to your post. That is really good that you are trying to work out what is going on for you before it gets worse. Have you considered speaking to a therapist to see if they can help you with this newly developing problem you are having? Sometimes they can be quite helpful...

My last experiences with those sorts of people didn't go so well. One didn't know what GID was, another was obsessed with Freudian ideas, a GID specialist refused to talk about GID, one talked to me as though I was 5 years old, one just asked me irrelevant questions about masturbation and pornography (which he didn't do with his other patients who I questioned afterwards), and the only good one ever talked about irrelevant but interesting studies about pigeons riding trains.
Maybe I just had a bad run.

I also don't want to go to my Dr because she's been so good through all the GID stuff. If she doesn't take me seriously on this, she might lose seriousness on the GID.

When I find somewhere to live I'll be moving to uni, where I'll be changing Drs. I could potentially talk to New Dr about it.

I did learn from last time.. Don't ignore things until they get crazily bad.

It does definitely sound like you have had a bad run with therapists. I'm sorry to hear that.

[Pariah] wrote:I did learn from last time.. Don't ignore things until they get crazily bad.

I did learn that the hard way with my mental health condition also. It's not such a fun way to go about it...

Well at least for the moment you can do some research of your own on here and that way when you do get a new doctor, you will be able to discuss what issues you are having and how you feel that relates to the things you have researched... I hope you find it helpful here...

salted lipstick wrote:It does definitely sound like you have had a bad run with therapists. I'm sorry to hear that.

I did learn that the hard way with my mental health condition also. It's not such a fun way to go about it...

Well at least for the moment you can do some research of your own on here and that way when you do get a new doctor, you will be able to discuss what issues you are having and how you feel that relates to the things you have researched... I hope you find it helpful here...

Thank you It's good of you to reply to all these newbie threads.

[Pariah] wrote:Thank you It's good of you to reply to all these newbie threads.

You are welcome. It's always good to have a chat to the new people, I enjoy it.

I'll be seeing you around. Keep me posted on how things are going for you...