Hello...

Hi, I'm Kelvin, 33, and a Canadian... really messed up, but also very sane. I'm seperated, miss my wife, living with my parents, and unemployed. Vandel is Quenyan [Tolkien] for Staff. I used to use Vandel Samno, which was Staff Builder, but I haven't made walking sticks in a really long time. My special interest changes sometimes.

I have Asperger's w/OCD and Depression with extreme Social Phobias and Gifted Intelligence. Though I fail to see what good a partial photographic memory is. So I can remember things, and other things I can't remember if my life depended on it. The Cognitive Distortions have however been known to distort and cause that grand memory to be a little jaded in the storage medium. So... I sometimes can't trust it, or it gives out information sometimes that is shifted from it's original form. I am semi-self destructive. Recently cutting, the occasional suicide attempt. I'm definitely accident prone. But I've been under a lot of stress, and I keep getting into abusive relationships.

I have an innate ability to attract psychopathic or sociopathic women who are very very very mean.

I have strong interests in Meta-Physics, Astrology/Astronomy, Numerology, I-Ching, Tarot, Tasseography, Meditation, Theology & Philosophy & Mythology, Applied Statistics & Predictive Methods, Criminology, Sociology, Psychology & Consciousness, Ancient History, Puzzles & Logic [Chess], World Politics, Conspiracy Theories, Wellness & Being, Diet & Nutrition, Herbal Medicine, Metallurgy, Biographies of Interesting People, Programming & Computers in General, Drawing & Graphic Arts & 3D-Modelling, Gardening, Libraries, Cataloguing Methods, Music [Mostly Classical Brahms, Bach, and Beethoven, but I listen to just about anything], Acoutistics and Acoustic Research, Waterfalls, Canoeing, Motorcycles [I don't like cars, they kill people, I'd ride a horse if I had somewhere to put it instead, few deaths result from horse tramplings it seems safe and you get a friend], Farms and Farm Life, Photovoltaics & Green Alternive Energy Sources, Space & Time, Words and Meanings, Woodworking & Burning, Lapidology... it would probably be more practical to list what I'm not into.

I like Dr. Who, Farscape, and most things of a Sci-Fi nature. I'll read a dictionary before I read a fiction book. I'd like to learn Tai-Chi but I'm too clumsy. I can't dance, but I don't like social functions anyways. I'm a certified practioner of healing touch. I like cats. I lean towards Aristotle. I believe what happened to Joan of Arc was just wrong. I have a problem with institutions. And just because I choose a side of something to discuss it does not necessarily mean that is my belief. Roses are my favourite flower. I am a vegetarian mostly. I live mostly of cereal. Shreddies are my favourite. I don't shower much, unless I have somewhere to go, or I'm in a relatioship. I'm a purpose driven person, if it doesn't serve a purpose at the time, I don't worry about it. I'm a piles over files kind of person. I like to know where all my stuff is. When it's put away in cupboards and closets I can't find anything, and things disappear. People joke I have a Bermuda Triangle Affect around me. So I've been told I'm kinda messy. But since I don't own much more than a couple hundred books, my clothes, a computer and some tools it's not really a problem. Sleep is overrated. I have very vidid and lucid dreams, they make me tired. I like to talk about anything interesting, but I have to rest and regenerate after a lot of mental activity. It's exhausting. I get tired very easily.

I have done everything from picking rocks out of corn fields, to programming under contract for the United States Government.

I love cooking. Despite my limited dietary intake, I can cook some very good meals. I make all my breads from scratch. If I'm feeling really ambitious I'll make my pastas and whatnot as well. That's more the OCD and having to know what's in all my food. And I'm a very very very picky eater, with lots of foods that don't sit well with me. I have major digestive troubles.

Cookies must always be eaten with milk and in groups of four. I don't much like stepping on lines. I don't like violence, I especially don't like it when other people are mean to other people, it bothers me a lot. I have a tendency to ramble. Feel free to tell me to stop talking.. it's okay. I like to solve problems. I can despite my disorders handle criticism pretty well, and I try very much to be constructive. I'm an aspiring writer. It doesnt' always work out so well. I know I'm awkward. Very much so. but I do try to be sincere in my efforts. If anything is worth doing, it's worth doing well, or not at all. I'm a perfectionist.

My biggest problem is lack of focus. I CAN'T FOCUS!!! Too many ideas... thoughts... I have no problem with creativity. Enough... yeah yeah... be well.

Hi Kelvin,

We've spoken before; I thought I'd welcome you here, too.

You seem to be a very interesting person with lots of different interests. But you also appear very humble, even though you know a lot about a lot of different things.

It's nice to see you on the forums.

--Frayed

FrayedEndOfSanity wrote:We've spoken before; I thought I'd welcome you here, too.

Thank you... I know... I do appreciate your insights, along with the efforts of the other admins and users alike. I haven't been here more than a few days, but I have already met a lot of very interesting people, and learned a lot about myself, and trying hard to learn about other people. It is a very diverse world out there. I have been sheltered for most of it, so exposure to the mentalities of others is going to take a bit of adjustment. Thank you for being patient with me, I appreciate it.

FrayedEndOfSanity wrote:You seem to be a very interesting person with lots of different interests.

Depends how you look at it... but thank you for putting it in a positive light. Others have told me I have short attention span, jumping from subject to subject. I find most everyone to be very kind, my anxieties are still getting the better of me a bit, even here... I'll work through it, hope I don't step on too many toes along the way. My apologies in advance if I do. I do believe in accepting responsibility.

FrayedEndOfSanity wrote:But you also appear very humble, even though you know a lot about a lot of different things.

There are some things I do not tolerate, violations of human rights, violence against other human beings, and blatant intolerance to difference. Other than that... I do believe very much in being cordial, showing respect, understanding, compassion, and empathy to everyone. I do appreciate you calling me humble, few people can see past my anxieties, and some of my strong opinions. But it is a state of existence I do very much attempt to respect, and a facet of my daily existence I try to explore and exhibit. As you know... some days our efforts are easier to apply than others.

FrayedEndOfSanity wrote:It's nice to see you on the forums.

It has been nice meeting you to. Be well.