Hello

As above. Hello.

I've made a few attempts at forum posts on other sites and perhaps this one on different accounts, but never managed to stick with it for very long at all I'm afraid. This time I think will probably end in the same manner, but I feel the need to vent or at least disclose some of the issues I've been having. I don't really have any personal support or good coping mechanisms in place and I'm starting to reach critical mass again so here we are..

I've had a long standing complex of mental health problems that I've slowly been dialing in on over the past 3 years. I was first given a dual diagnosis of bipolar and schizophrenia after a psychotic episode involving involuntary hospitalization. Medication followed for a number of months with no real change in condition except for the development of sleep apnea eventually traced back to the medication I was on. Just recently, after many months of back and forth between psychiatrists and nuerologists, I've been given a new diagnosis of adhd - innatentive type, major depression, anxiety, and schizoid personality. Which does feel to me like a better fit than the bipolar and schizophrenia, but leaves me feeling just as hopeless as before that these issues can be resolved to a degree that I don't feel constantly on the outside of the society I wish to belong in.

My experience with medication has left me with little trust left to award to those who would claim to be able to help me. But I also know that I am unable to just get over these problems that have been present essentially for my entire life. I've been in therapy for two years now and do see some progress a bad day, which this has been, seems to undo any good that I find about myself. I'm trying to find a way back to a functional life, in which I have goals beyond getting through one more day. I'd like to find some meaningful connection with people or at least one person, but it feels truly something that is not in the cards here. I'm sounding dour, but I'll be better in a day or a week or a month. Anyway good to make the acquaintance of whoever should post here.

Hello and welcome to the forums! We hope you'll find a place to stick around here- so long as it's healthy for you to engage in the forums, of course.