Trying to find my way

I'm lost in these woods. Dense, dark woods. I might not find the road everyone around me seems to be on, but just a beaten path would suffice.

Hello everyone.

I found this website at 4 in the morning. I'm sure some of you guys also found it at the same time.

I live in Canada, the french part, with the poutine and all. I don't really like it here actually since people here speak french but I've spent most of my adult life interacting with people in english (online mostly).

I'm seeing a psychiatrist on a regular basis. My most recent diagnosis is Avoidant Personality disorder (AvPD, I literally got confirmation last tuesday, so 4 days ago). I actually found these forums by googling the illness and seeing if there's a place somewhere where people talked about it. I've known that I was avoidant for awhile. It feels like fear of living.

AvPD comes with social anxiety disorder (and just being a ball of stress) so my psychiatrist told me about that as well. I also have been diagnosed with dysthymia and a binge eating disorder. I'm also a highly sensitive person and medication didn't work in my case, so I'm waiting to see a psychologist for therapy right now.

Due to all of these issues, I'm living at home with my mother and I'm on disability. I've recently also got out of a relationship that was...well, not a relationship. It was mutual infatuation and codependency. After a sudden breakup (and my ex's desire to pretend I never existed by totally blocking me out of her life), I've been wandering around basically.

I found this place. I found another place but this one feels even better. I hope to be of use and to participate in the near future.

I hear the woods are really pretty this time of the year.

I'm glad you found the forum, TSD. avoidant-personality/ is a nice corner of the site. And you'll be welcome there. Or anywhere else you'd like to post.

I did lurk that forum for a bit and it didn't take me long to sign up. It'll be good to see other people's perspective on something I've been struggling with for years but only recently have been able to put a name on it.

Thanks for the warm welcome.