TW: Toefreckle

I have a freckle on the tip of my right big toe, which is where my username comes from. I am a 22 year old grad student living in a new place after being raped by my ltso. We were going to get married. I still have flashbacks of him slamming my head into the wall over and over again. I've dealt with depression and anxiety as long as I can remember, possibly as a result of being molested as a child. The result of this has been a lifelong battle with dissociative tendencies (depersonalization and derealization), bulimia, and cutting. I recently have started dealing with insomnia and night terrors. I've started therapy recently and they handed me a diagnosis of bulimia, dysthymia, ptsd and social phobia. I live my birthmom and stepdad and their two kids (younger sister younger brother) now in a small town. I have no friends in this state and no drivers license. I grew up with my dad and stepmom and three younger sisters. I also have an older brother I never lived with from my dad's first marriage. I have a cat, I write poetry, I spin fire, I love reading, and I don't know how to make good choices when it comes to relationships and I don't think I like my major.

You're welcome here, Toefreckle. I'm glad you found us. And hope you find it useful to be here. It seems like there might be lots of forums which you might find interesting to read and post in. Please don't get overwhelmed though. Whatever's comfortable for you.