by Vicious Cabaret » Thu Sep 07, 2006 1:27 pm
Hi. I made a post on here a few months ago, but I was too scared to go back to it because I felt stoopid. XD; However, I have returned, and hopefully, I won't run away this time!
I'm an 18-year-old weirdo from the UK with depressive tendencies. I've never been diagnosed with anything, but hating yourself and telling yourself you ought to be dead for nine years isn't exactly indicative of a healthy mind, is it? ^_^; It would be nice to know exactly what is wrong me so that then I could just shut up and get on with it and concentrate on making everybody else happy, but I'm too scared to go and see anyone about it because I'm a wimp of DOOOOM. XD Actually, one of my reasons for not going is that I'm really, really bad at communicating my thoughts and I'm terrified of making an idiot out of myself and upsetting/angering other people. (This is why I tend not to stay on online forums for more than a week ^_^; but obviously, I'm hoping to stay on here longer than that)
I tend to be quite quiet about my 'problems', especially offline, as I don't like to bring people down with me, but I also have an attitude which says, "Yes, I'm mad, bonkers, insane, loony, whatever you wanna call me! And if you don't like it, you can b***** off and hang out with the boring normal people =P" A lot of my personality seems to be self-contradictory, actually... one minute I'll be ranting and raving about how stupid and worthless I am, the next I'll be laughing in the face of someone who just insulted me because I'll think they're pathetic for doing so.
Anyway, this post is probably as long as the river Nile now, so I'll stop babbling and let you all get on with your lives. Cheerio~! =D
At last the 1998 show!
The ballet on the burning stage!
The documentary seen upon the fractured screen!
The dreadful poem scrawled upon the crumpled page!