Hi, my name is Roopy

Hi, my name is Roopy and I am 23 years old. I suffered from a severe mood disorder for 2 years and was very suicidal at that time. But i am recovering. I still suffer from various things though.. mental illnesses - like borderline personality disorder, disassociation and things i'm not even sure about. I don't have a proper diagnosis actually. I hallucinated before too, and basically there is the whole back story as to why things are like this for me, but for now, its nice to meet you all, and i hope we can become friends.
I am looking for some friends. Anyone with whom i can talk to. I feel i am a pretty down to earth and positive person (not like out of this world positive, i mean i have my bad days too), but i promise i won't become needy on you, or put my burdens and sorrows onto you, because i mean, I just feel that's unfair. We're all dealing with our own $#%^ right? i just want to understand and grow more and maybe there is someone out there with whom i can share my experiences or just have fun and chat with,and maybe even skype, and with whom i can learn from. I am shy though, but i would appreciate having any girl friends, and guy friends, and even maybe becoming something more with a guy, not anything serious though... obviously, but well, my relationships with guys has always been limited and it would be nice to share a connection with someone, even if its online. Wow.. i'm weird,.. and sad.. lol. I'm just sad i guess. But it would be cool to share my life with someone wouldn't it? Okay to tell the truth my mom was raped by my dad many times and then forced to marry him so i was hardly ever allowed guy friends and absolutely no bfs. Phew! fine i told you lol.

Omg this is such a long message
Anyways, ya'll message me and let's be friends!

I also want to say that im sort of schizophrenic too. a little. So if there is anyone that feels fear a lot, or hallucinates, or anything like that, i would really like to talk to you. It would be comforting knowing there is someone like me out there.