Voice Memo Journal-ing...Weird? Format Suggestions?

So I have begun releasing my feelings and emotions through a journal. In everyday life, I rely on defenses and a "front" most of the time. I try to keep things "superficial" with people, I repress and I avoid disclosing my inner self. I am realizing that part of this is that I do not want to release my inner self to...myself! I don't like who I am deep down, I am scared to even address my inner most feelings and emotions.

Journal-ing has been fantastic so far! It feels really good to acknowledge and reassure my inner feelings in this way. My journal is a private thing that no-one else can read. It really has been a revelation.

My aim at the moment is learning to disclose myself to ME, then to trusted friends and family and then to others. I am still very much at the ME stage but things are getting better.

I just remembered that long ago, I brought an iPod adapter that is a microphone (like a Dictaphone) for lectures and classes. I never used it. But suddenly I had an idea! I could go one step further than writing down my thoughts and feelings. In reality...I will not be having day to day conversations with people using my journal! I will be SPEAKING. Also, I have found that actually admitting my feelings OUT LOUD in a safe and secure therapy setting is far more effective in releasing the emotion and triggering acceptance and thinking of solutions.

I could begin Voice Memo-ing as well as my journal. I could talk into the microphone about my feelings and why I felt that way. I do not even have to listen to it back, although I might. I could also record myself when I am happy. I may find that when I listen back, some of my fears sound silly and ill founded...even to me! It could also help me get a feel for how I sound and improve how confidently I speak.

What do people think of this idea? Do I sound like a nutter?! I can imagine what people would say if they heard that I talk to myself in a microphone. Do people think this is weird?

Also, does anyone have any suggestions of a format and how I could approach it? (e.g. should I pretend that I am opening up to a therapist).

Thanks for reading. I would appreciate any input.

Cheers.

Speaking as a weird nutter, I can't judge how you're going to sound doing this. Seems entirely reasonable to me. But it's no-one's business but yours. Go for it! [And tell us how it goes.]

Format wise. I wonder about writing a couple of specific questions. And then trying to answer those aloud. Keeping things very short to start with. That's for two reasons. First because it might be more comfortable to take a Q&A approach. Rather than trying to do a monologue from scratch. Second because if you have a note of which questions are answered in which file, that'll help you keep track of answers when you want to listen back. If you treat it like a therapy session, you'll end up with 30 or 50 mins of talk [and probably long thinking silences.] That won't be very easy to ever listen back to.

Another idea would be to read a paragraph from your written journal and then add comments to it aloud. Again it gives it some structure without losing all spontaneity or ability to follow up later.