haldol induced psycosis???
about 3 years ago i was admited to a psych ward for anxiety, nothing severe i was having come and go panic attacks for no reason ,soon after i was given a shot of Haldol (haloperidol) Injection, to calm me down,after i was given a shot of haldol a whole feeling and rush of liquid had ran threw my body and i had i died ..well died mentally and physically..i had the biggest panic attack,my heart was racing at 120bpms non stop ,my body felt detatched from the world and i was hallucinating seeing deamons and dooms day but everything was slow motion, after the shot and lost all touch with the world ,i completley freaked out ,i was sceaming i was feeling mental pain and my body felt like i was in a shell shock i wanted out of this hell ,it was was the worst thing i ever expierenced in my life,i didnt know what life was or what i was i was suffering delirium,i thought i died and was in hell ,until this day i still am in a mental shock...the following morining i woke up with so much pressure in my head and confused ,i couldnt really move,i went home and went to sleep where again i woke up with the biggest anxiety attack and my whole body felt sedtaed but my body was fighting to stay alert ,i couldnt move and all i could do was try to fight to hold myself up from collapsing,again i was in the worst fear stage of my life completley dellusional and oblivious to the world...i ended up in another mental institution where i was in a coma state sycosis and slept for 5 days straight ..i was put on zyprexa(for sycosis),lamitcal(for seizures),and klonopin(for anxiety),after 2 weeks i started to feel more alert and less anxiety i was discarched sooner after, then for a year i was heavily sedated,depressed and was not very animated, slolwly got down to lower doses of medicine...1 mg of klonopin a day ,100mg of lamictal and 10 mg of zyprexa,the next 2 years i was having terrible insomnia and ocd with my body i would keep getting paranoid thoughts,and kept seeing the same image in my head due to ocd and i was always fighting in the streets because i was angry and depressed ,but again one of these meds were the only thing keeping me alert ,i was becoming intellegent and saying brilliant things my mind was becoming to deep for my thoughts and i was flase believing stuff ,especially judging people(By zodiac signs and by how they look )my mind would race trying to go to sleep ,again i was slowly going down on zyprexa eventually to 2.5 mg and soon 1/4th of that ...last week i completley stopped zyprexa and for the first few days i felt weak and fatigued so much pressure in my head ,vertigo and felt like i was going to seize but i happy and the ocd went away as well as the racing thoughts,but my whole body twitched including my brain and but again i felt happy and less anxious my body finally felt some what free like i was going to be normal again..then all of a sudden i was up one night dellusional not knowing anything or who people are i felt drunk ,and couldnt hold my self up ,i was staggering ,and losing my motor skills,i went to ER and got my head and blood checked but it was fine......again i went in to another sycosis i was in my yard dellusional and confused,crying for no reason ,these last 3 days i forgot who people were,,i couldnt walk i felt like i was in a veggie state and barley able to get a word out ,i was a mute..feeling as if i was going brain dead, i had vertigo and was confused and shaking and not knowing what had happend the last 3 years of my life,i woke up,feeling the desire to hurt some one but my body was to fatigued to do so i was so weak and so i took 5mg of zyprexa which is why i am barley able to type this story,when i was completely of zyprexa my body was paralyzed my mind was frozen and was dellirus.my head and neck had so much tension and my muscle would twitch uncontrollably........i was never diagnosed with any mental illness in my life only anxiety until One shot of Haldol what has this drug done to me?????do i have hope in being normal again??? Can i sue>??/some one help i am a 20 year old male by the way.......HELP..none of the dr's want to believe that haldol ruined me