I just had one that has freaked me out totally. I'm so freaked out. I have to calm down. I'm just not sure this is real..but I think..I'm pretty sure if is...Since I heald an icecub down to my leg and it was cold and I gave myself a little cut and it was real. so I think this is real. I'm just freaked out. It was some Inception $#%^ I swear. When I analyze it closely there is too much stuff in it for it to not be a dream, but it still felt so real..and I'm just waiting for something now to go awry.
I swear I thought I was seriously stuck in two different indentical realities, except in one I was so slow and like drugged . Constantly sleepy and no one could tell what was wrong with me and I couldn't either. I could barely tell where I was. It was like how you feel in dreams when you're trying to wake up in reality and can't. I was certain I was going to be stuck.
I guess I was at my sister's in one and then I passed out or something and then I was at my house laying in my bed. And my sister's husband was leaning against this lamp in my room and he asked if I was okay and I spoke so slow and like I could barely hear my voice and everytime I'd give into the sleep I'd flit into another reality. I told hiim I needed to go to the hospital and that there were two realities. I was certain I was crazy. He kept giving me answers like he was trying to ignore them or something. I kept trying to get up and I couldn't quite do it. He told me I could. Then he started talking about 'you don't know what I am, do you? This is a dream. You can do anything you want." So I kept trying and I made it to the door when my nephew was there and then my sister went ot pick him up and then it's like I was right back in the bed. I started crying and telling him that this is the longest ######6 dream I've ever had and I want out. And then I begged to go to the hospital and it's like I could see me walking down the steps...but those steps were from my old apartment..but anyway...and then falling in the street, but I was still stuck in the bed.
Some serious serious fudge up and it has me all nervous and I have to convince myself that this is in fact real. I've had dreams before when I couldn't tell the difference between it and reality. Mainly the ones where I'm laying in bed and this shadow guy? (for some reason I can feel that the shadow is male from the energy it gives off?) and then it's just touching all over me and I can't move at all . And then I wake up and I'm not sure if I'm in reality or not.
Gosh I hate getting like this. It was worse this time though since I'm already in aI guess you'd say fragile state. Talking it out has made me feel better though. I treid calling my freind, but I forgot that she was in school.
*takes a deep breath*