I need some help with this. I dont know what else to do.

I want to apologize in advance for this long post. I am 31yrs old. I smoke, dont drink.
This is the hard truth of the matter. From day 1 till now. I posted somthing like this before. I tried to delete that post, but i cant. Please help.

I have been able to trace how some of this began so here goes:

June 15th - Issues with sleep began because of thinking of blown opportunities in my life. Got no sleep that night. Finally fell asleep at 7am on June 16th. I slept until 11am.

June 16th - No issues. I got my 8hrs.

June 17th - No issues. I got my 8hrs.

June 18th - No issues. I got my 8hrs.

June 19th - No issues. I got my 8hrs.

June 20th - Issues. Some stress. I only got 3hrs.

June 21st - No issues. I got my 8hrs.

June 22nd - No issues. I got my 8hrs.

June 23rd. - Issues. I had some stress. I got about 4hrs.

June 24th - No issues. I got my 8hrs.

June 25th - July 2nd - I had some issues throughout this time frame. I still got 8hrs of sleep each night.

July 3rd - Issues. I got 0 sleep because of alot of issues in the home and with family.

July 4th - Issues. I got 0 sleep because of the same things that happened on the 3rd. I then became scared to death because i was massively tired, but couldnt sleep.

July 5th - Finally fell asleep at 9am. Slept till 4pm. Went to sleep at 3am this night, woke up at 10:30am on the 6th. (was worried most of this day because of my sleep)

July 6th - Issues. I got 0 sleep because i was scared and worried about my sleep issues.

July 7th - Saw doc. No issues. Took 2 xanax's. Got 12hrs sleep.

July 8th - Issues. Took 2 xanax's. Got 45mins of sleep.

July 9th - Saw different doc. No issues. Took 1 Ambien. Got 7hrs.

July 9th - No issues. Took Ambien. Got 5hrs sleep.

July 10th - No issues. Took Ambien. Got 5hrs sleep.

July 11th - No issues. Took Ambien. Got 5hrs sleep.

July 12th - No issues. Took Ambien. Got 5hrs sleep.

July 13th - No issues. Took Ambien. Got 5hrs sleep.

July 14th - No issues. Took Ambien. Got 5hrs sleep.

July 15th - Issues. Took no Ambien because i wanted to try and sleep on my own. I got 2hrs of sleep.

July 16th - No issues. Took Ambien. Got 6hrs sleep.

July 17th - No issues. No Ambien. Got 5hrs sleep.

July 18th - No issues. No Ambien. Got 5hrs sleep.

July 19th - No issues. No Ambien. Got 5hrs sleep.

July 20th - No issues. No Ambien. Got 5hrs sleep.

July 21st - No issues. No Ambien. Got 5hrs sleep.

July 22nd - No issues. No Ambien. Got 5hrs sleep.

July 23rd - No issues. No Ambien. Got 5hrs sleep.

July 24th - No issues. No Ambien. Got 5hrs sleep.

July 25 - Saw psych doc about my issues. Told her that i get really anxious and scared as night-time approaches before i need to sleep. I was put on Remeron 15mg. No issues. I got 6hrs of sleep.

July 26th - No issues. Took Remeron. Got 6hrs sleep.

July 27th - - No issues. Took Remeron. Got 6hrs sleep.

July 28th - No issues. Took Remeron. Got 6hrs sleep.

July 29th - Issues. Decided to go back home after staying by my sisters house from the 8th of July until the 29th of July. I took my Remeron. I only got 3hrs of sleep.

July 30th - No issues. Took Remeron. Got 6hrs sleep.

July 31st - No issues. Took Remeron. Got 6hrs sleep.

Aug 1st - No issues. Took Remeron. Got 6hrs sleep.

Aug 2nd - No issues. Took Remeron. Got 6hrs sleep.

Aug 3rd - Issues. Took Remeron. I got 0 hrs sleep.

Aug 4th - No issues. Took Remeron. Got 7hrs sleep.

Aug 5th - Issues. Took Remeron. I got 0hrs sleep.

Aug 6th - No issues. Was bumped up to 30mg of Remeron. I got 9hrs sleep.

Last night Aug 7th - Issues. Took 2 Remeron. I got 0hrs sleep. I finally fell asleep this morning at about 9am. I slept 1hr.

I want to make mention that on July 5th, i started looking on the internet for some self help techniques to tackle this issue. I ended up coming across a disease called Fatal Familial Insomnia. Its a genetic disease that effects the thalumus in the brain. It is also stated that this is a very rare disease as well. It has been only documented 100 times on this earth. Apparently this is an inherited disease. Basically put: Its an insomnia that can kill you.

The symptoms are:
The age of onset is variable, ranging from 35 to 60, with an average of 50. However the disease tends to prominently occur in later years, primarily following childbirth. The disease can be detected prior to onset by genetic testing.[5] Death usually occurs between 7 and 36 months from onset. The presentation of the disease varies considerably from person to person, even among patients from within the same family.

The disease has four stages, taking 7 to 18 months to run its course:
1.The patient suffers increasing insomnia, resulting in panic attacks, paranoia, and phobias. This stage lasts for about four months.
2.Hallucinations and panic attacks become noticeable, continuing for about five months.
3.Complete inability to sleep is followed by rapid loss of weight. This lasts for about three months.
4.Dementia, during which the patient becomes unresponsive or mute over the course of six months. This is the final progression of the disease, after which death follows.

Other symptoms include profuse sweating, pinprick pupils, the sudden entrance into menopause for women and impotence for men, neck stiffness, and elevation of blood pressure and heart rate. Constipation is common as well.


This entire time i havent been able to stop fearing going to sleep. I have tried my hardest to not even think of it. My psych thinks i have something called Psychophysiological Insomia. Its pretty much the constant obsessive worry of sleep. I bugging out over here. People keep telling me that its because i worry to much about my sleep, hence i wont sleep well, or sleep at all. Alot of this all makes sense. In my past, i have had issues with anxiety disooder and hypochondria. I had thought i had all of this under control. It wasnt until i was up for 48hrs that all of this hit me like a ton of bricks. Im just wondering what i can to to stop this . I cant take it anymore. My psych told me that i need to start calming down and relaxing before bedtime. I really try hard. Its just that when i know its time to turn in, i get scared and my mind starts racing. Can anyone help?

Joeman, what helped with your hypochondria in the past? Could you do something fun before you go to bed, so that you start associating it with sleep time?