thanks fae, i've never tried serax. and it wasn't mentioned by my psychiatrist either. maybe i'll bring it up next time. doctor is just stunned that my body can take so many sedating substances and still not sleep. they also found chloral hydrate at anna nicole smith's place when she died. and the rossetti's used it. it was otc for a long time after it was discovered to be addictive and used for no reason, just to get high. and you put chloral hydrate in alcohol and tra la! you have a mickey finn. but i have no intention of abusing this medication. i'm just learning a lot about it. it just has this long history. i read a book that had it in it, "i never promised you a rose garden." everyone should read that book. it's a ya book, and a quick read but it totally changed my perspective about mental illness.
i get weird when i am starting a new medication. i just never know how my body is going to react. and that makes me nervous which makes me want to take an ativan and that isn't cool cos that threads into the new med, making things different inside. i get all anxious to try them, like, i got the script for it two days ago and i'm getting it filled later today. i wanted them earlier but husband didn't want to go to the pharmacy.
and i will stop overtaking the seroquel at night and take it as prescribed. i can't imagine the damage i've done to my body with all the pills i've taken. don't want to know.
anyways, i'll be journaling real time tonight when i take the chloral hydrate.
stay tuned!