I feel that I won't wake up when I go to sleep.

Hello. Thanks for taking the time to read this.

When I'm in bed I feel that I will die in my sleep.

I'm 20 years old. I have had severe insomnia and depression all of my life. I recently discovered that I'm bipolar and manic. ( extremely manic, every possible symptom ). So I usually stay up til 2 or 3 as I only need a few hours to function ( extreme mania I assume ). I wake up early every morning feeling dead but after a few minutes I want to run a marathon. But, back to the subject. I feared sleep before this because I'm very prone to nightmares and vivid dreams. I wake up confused and out of touch from reality. It takes me a while to gather my thoughts and sometimes even establish who I am. The less sleep I get, the better I feel when I wake up. If I get more than 5 hours i feel like death trying to become alive. I also can't be alone for very long but my mental issues make it difficult to interact, so that makes for interesting days.

If anyone would like to share with me your similar issues and/or how you deal with these things or medication you've used to help for instance, that would be great.

Does anyone else feel like they're gonna perish in their sleep? Is there any way to deal with this? Sorry if I sound whining or bothersome. I'm extremely exhausted from a long day of mania lol..

Thanks everyone.

I know what you mean... I get rushes when I go to sleep that feels realy disturbing...before I was put on antipsychotics I had problems with breathing stopping during the night and waking with the most horrible feeling ever...got really bad sleep deprivation had panic attacks and called the ambulence silly me then I got diagnosed schoizoaffective---they say sleep problems are a symptom not a cause, pretty dumb-