What a tough mind to live in

Hi there, I made an account just so I could write this. I was diagnosed last year with bipolar II, and I can't remember a time when I didn't have to struggle. I'm lucky to have started treatment as young as 24, and I'm doing really well, but tonight is hard and I wanted someone to hear that. Tonight, I wish I didn't have this particular mind. It's difficult to come to terms with how hard I've always had to work. It's hard to accept I've spent most of my life being sad. I wish things were easier. I wish happy was my natural state.

Paper ponies, I've felt that way too. I'm doing pretty much ok now, but there have been times when I'd get really depressed for weeks and it can get so painful.. Thank goodness you're getting help and my illness (whatever it is, I haven't been diagnosed) doesn't usually get to me that much. You're welcome to come here and talk any time. How are you feeling now?

paper ponies wrote:I wish happy was my natural state.

I understand that feeling all too well. I am bipolar II as well, diagnosed about 8 months ago. Been on meds, tho, for about 15 or so months.

Are you on meds?