Meditation and its effect on me

Quick information about me.

I used to live a normal life where my thoughts were very clear. I was one of the most socially interesting and fun people to be around (this was in highschool). After a traumatic experience I wasnt the same. Now I have a hard time connecting with people and making conversation.

Heres the interesting thing, I began meditation 2 days ago and did some mind work. I tried imagining everyone I care about standing in front of me. One by one they would say something to me. I actually could feel connected to them as soon as they opened their mouth. I FELT their energy and true nature talking to mine. I realized that is what I don't have today. When people talk to me, I don't feel their true selves talking, I only hear information even though I know a real person is talking to me who has something important to say.

When anyone talks to me, even my parents, I don't receive a connection like most everyone else does. I remember when I used to. Life was just....completely normal in a good way. Now its like, when people talk to me, I don't FEEL what they say, I just process the information in my head and my mind spits out answers like a computer. Because of this, I don't respond with authentic heart connect responses. Everything I say is meaningless. I try so hard to truely talk to other people, but somewhere in my head, I can't. Too much mental noise. I carry too much tension in my body and can't relate to anyone.

Does anyone know of how to become connected with ones self again? For the couple seconds when I was in my head talking to everyone I cared about, I felt this ALIVENESS that I havent felt in years. I need to get back to living normal. Life is like walking up a mountain while towing a car. When I have that connection, life is like driving up the mountain in a car.

I've gone out today and talked with some of my friends at work, after doing the meditation, for the first time in a while I was able to fit into the conversations normally. It looks like whatever I'm doing is helping, and I highly reccomend meditation to anyone who has mental stress, illness. Im very satisfied and im going to continue meditating.

Hi,

Yeh, for sure, continue with the meditation if it helps you connect to people in conversation. You may find eventually that speaking/interacting become so natural that you don't even think about what you're doing. That would then be a sign that you are comfortable with yourself in social settings and have acquired th necessary [unwritten] skills for speaking in groups.

Does anyone know of how to become connected with ones self again?

Yes, I do. Simply stop thinking too much about how to connect to it, and just get on with your life. If you do this, then you will connect to your own self merely by not trying.

Dude

You know meditation is the best way to get more happier in every phrases of life! It is tough but when you get control over your mind by meditation you will live your life peacefullly...

To get connected with self..it looks like finding own self-guider..You can do it..

Meditation and tea especially green and oolong teas are the keys to seeing yourself - becoming aware of the many realities that manifest the one true reality - the real perception that too often we believe we don't see.... May you be released from your suffering and attain enlightenment. Namaste.

I can attest to the calming effects of herbal teas. In fact, herbal tea is the only type of liquid that I've been drinking for the past 3 or so years. Every night, I make at least two pots of it and drink it all. Types that I drink are Green, Oolong, Peppermint, Chamomile, and Nettle. Not only do they contain anti-oxiodathns, but they also contain diuertics which can prevent the build-up of fluid in your cells and keep your kidneys in good working order.

Meditation! #1

I have meditated for about 5 years now seriously, and it has changed the quality of my life. The benefits are too numerous to mention. It is simple. It is easy. It just takes a commitment to keep doing it, as the benefits get more and deeper the more time you spend in meditation.

We in the West need to take some serious lessons from the East.

i agree - We are exposed to an innumerable amount of stressors in our daily life that we need something to take it all away. Some people resort to friends but what about us who have no friends? To be honest though, I have not engaged in meditation at all, LifeSong. Would you care to share some of the ways in which it has helped you? I'm very interested to know.

Kevin