i hate how i look

what is the explanation for insecurity? and how to overcome it?
i really hate how i look. i have a bigger nose, my right eye is not proportionate to my left eye and i have a lot of acne scars. so i feel very shy when friends invite for a picture-taking, 'cause those things become obvious when the picture was developed. sometimes they would throw compliments to each and everyone who is in the pic, and when it comes to me, they'd either be silent, or say, "look at d--(my name)".
i want to do something about those things. i am in anxiety everyday because i don't look good. no clothes get along well with me because of how i look like, plus, i'm very thin. this is more embarrassing for me 'cause i'm already 20 and since i was a teen i've been being problematic about this. this affects how i relate with other people. i never had a relationship, and it hurts me being not able to tell the people i like that i like them. they go to the hands of others. it's just ok to be hurt for that reason because people we like won't always like us back... but it's a different thing for me. 'cause i never got the chance to show them i like them. i don't like this to happen forever.
aside from that, i am insecure about my intelligence and behavior. i have a work now, a work no one believed i would get, as this kind of job is really very hard to get hired to in our country. i even ranked 17th in our whole account which has more or less 400 agents. my name and face is on our wall of fame. but still, i feel not contented. i still want to improve. i want to change. i want to forget who i am.
any advice? especially, how to have improvement on my looks?
i always find time to have a diamond peel session... but will it do? how about my eyes?
thank you for the replies.

Dear killua-kun,

This is very sad to hear that you feel this way about yourself. After reading your post though, I feel like you are going too hard on yourself, especially when it comes to looks. You would be surprised at how little they actually matter in order to be happy!
The thing you need to realize is that good looking people are not always the physically most attractive people in the room. They are the best looking people because they make other people feel good and believe in themselves! If a guy looks like Brad Pitt but sits in the corner and does nothing versus a Jerry Seinfeld who is making people laugh and having a great, 100% of the time Jerry will win the crowd over. We are always our toughest critic anyway, and the things you notice about your body most people probably don't even recognize!
Remember your passions always and share them with everyone you can and never stop discovering new ones! This will attract people into your life and energize those whom you already know! You seem to be an intelligent person who is one of the best workers at your company, this is also an achievement! Do not let the little feats you accomplish be disregarded!
Personally, to help myself feel better, I wake up feeling extremely grateful I live the life I do. I have loving friends and family, and am finally doing a job I enjoy. I would never take these things for granted, because I know there are people much worse off than me, so I can only be thankful.
I'm sure you have people in your life that love you with all their heart, and every time you are having a bad day, just think about a great time you had with them! It will put a smile on your face!
My last thing I want to share with you is if anything, if you truly believe in the bottom of your heart that you are on your way to living a better life and envision it, it will come true. I believe that you can do it! You are too good of a person not to reach your potential!

Wear a smile and have a heart full of life and love.People are attracted to others who have a spark or shine to them.Its not really whats on the oujtside at all.I feel sad reading you are so harsh on yourself.You may be projecting an unapproachable image by feeling this way.Be happy..be glad..be light.Most people DONT judge others on their exteriors.If they do,they have a serious problem within themselves.EVERYONE has something about themselves they dont like physically.But you learn to play up your assets.Google makeup tips about the eyes.My eyes are uneven too.That is common.But it isnt noticeable.Most people wont notice these things unless you point them out.Be proud of who you are and your accomplishments at such a young age!And let that inner beauty of yours shine through!!You hold your beauty,like everything else in your hands,now it is up to you how you project it!Dont forget to wear that smile xx

Symmetry rarely occurs in nature and humans are no exception. We are our own worst critics. Try not to focus on the features you dislike and play up what you do. There are many natural masks that can be thrown together by yourself for acne scars (turmeric works well for some individuals). Some brands of make-up offer products that supposedly help rid you of scarring while covering it at the same time.

...People are attracted to others who have a spark or shine to them...

^truth.

How we looks matters less and less as we get older and older. In basic training, something my company commander said stands out atm, he was always making fun of my last name calling me Grizelda instead of anything close to my actual name. One day they put up a suggestion box where we could write anonymously to discuss any complaints and I wrote about the butchering of my name. I said soehting like I understand you have 80 guys' names to remember but it seems more like you'r emocking mine than just can't recall it. He personally came and explained it's just in fun, or to that effect but once I'm out in the fleet, no one would ever make fun of my family name.

If people are making fun of you now, just bear in mind it's because of where you are. When you 'get out into the fleet' it'll stop and you'll be treated as an equal entitled to respect and honor.

Another solution to my own self-image issues is imagining how much I'd still care, or not, if struck blind suddenly. Would I still give a poop how I look?

Something else I forgot to mention is we're our own worst critics. We see ourselves in mirrors many tims every day and have every pimple, blemish, discoloration, and imperfection memorized. But others when they see and interact with us are taking us in as a whole, not on a minute scale where they're staring as the latest pimple or crease/line. People are usually going to be thinking about whether we're friends, doing our jobs well, and anything BUT how we look.